The Lifestyle of a Punk

Thoughts About My 21st Bday 17-o9-09

2009-09-20T03:49:00.003+08:00

Okay, I know this is totally crazy. I haven't been updating my blog since..JULY! Gosh..

Better start more often, since I really do want to keep track of what I'm doing everyday. Hopefully, there won't be any repetitions^^

The main reason of why this out-of-the-blue post is because I wanna celebrate my 21 years of life. With or without this blog, I really wanna express a big appreciation to those tat took time to send smses, to write on my wall, and well..wish me in person. ^^

I do remember the 1st one to wish me on its day is Ah Kang (another of my bday twin), then comes the girls (Doris, Amanda, Silvya and Melissa) the reason why I placed Doris cuz she initiate the rest to sing the song for me. (sweet of her to do tat^^) And well, then Joel just comes and shake my hand (without an pranks! GREAT!) and Ah Dong and Ah Liang later.

And tat happens between 12am-3am (17th Sept o9) I just love how u all remembers and cares enough to wish me^^ And also, the biggest surprise of all time is my dad giving me a call wishing me happy bday.

You know my dad isn't any english educated parents, and he's not the type tat expresses his feeling out so easily. I was at subang studio, and he called me (I tot he wants to know where I'm at) But suddenly he just blurts those magical words ("Happy Birthday ar". In case you're wondering) and after tat my eyes start tearing. I mean, I do love my dad. Just sometimes simple things like these will just make my heart melt. Really it's just once in a blue gray moon. LOL

And the bday present from him is..A MacBook Pro! Haha...Typical of my dad. Oh wells, unknowingly I'll be paying him bak. He loves me too much, and this is what I can do to show my gratitude. ^^ DAD!! I LOVE YOU!! And you're the best...

And God, thank You for giving me such a memorable 21st bday (even though there's no celebrations) The small things tat my friends and You blessed me with..Is something I will never ever forget..

2009-07-07T08:41:00.003+08:00

I AM SO FRIGGIN TIRED!!!

Been up since yesterday (monday) 1pm till today(tuesday)..And I'm still up bloggin this nonsense I went thru...This coming sat will be a major performance so still sewing the clothes and everything else..etc..

I wanna complain..Cuz I feel I'm just being stupid for no reason at all. Like when u wanna care for one person and somehow everything doesn't seems to work out right... So frustrated, maybe I'm listening to emo songs (from Jerry's comp) tat's why I'm being so emotional..shut it man!!

Kinda happy cuz at least Tracy (my world's reknown bestie) dropped by at my blog.. Okay, I heard the rest is coming up stairs to the studio. Yea, I know still in the studio..I think I shud go home and rest..

BEST THING bout today is...At night I'm going to get myself a Macbook.. ^^

Dun stop me, I know you want to. I'm going to buy cuz my comp has FINALLY busted, kaput, kua cai!! awww..I missed it...Cuz it's my fav comp to mix songs with. Bye..i gtg..dam tired..and wana kill myself for this suffering to happen to me..

2009-06-22T14:02:00.000+08:00

2009-06-21T20:35:00.002+08:00

Okay, it's my 1st day of...Ahem. Girls knows it.

In desperate pain..Physically.

Still waiting for my love while getting at it.

Later gonna go training, oh man!

I gonna die..I'm sure of it...

Someone buy me a coffin..I mean morphine(heehe)

Just to ease the pain.

God, thanks for helping me out so many times when I'm dying out on You all the time.

Jesus, You've been the greatest inspiration and strength I've ever need.

Heavenly Father, thanks for watching me when I'm in pain and help me ease the pain while You're at it. It's really an amazing journey for me to seek You everytime everyday and every breath.

I dedicate every single breath for You, my Lord. And I promise You, I'll be the young woman that seeks You heart. And thank You so much for being there for me all the time...Love You Lord.

2009-06-20T18:29:00.002+08:00

Where are you, my love?
Is there anything I can do to bring u closer to me?
Like air, I know you're there..But I can't see you..
Like gravity, the force is so strong invincibly loving you..
My dear..I miss you so much.
In times to come, we will be together. I believe it~
And when we're together...My next chapter will begin..

2009-06-18T18:00:00.002+08:00

Okay, I'm at the studio. Not practicing any moves cause i wanna online and do some stuff for Silvya~

Current Mood: Very grumpy

Why? 2 reasons that can make a person feel that way is..

Lack of Sleep (rest), and Lack of Food (hungry)..

Mine is the 2nd reason. MAN! I've gained like 2 kg++ and I have to do some broadway dance Amanda came up with. Meaning guys have to (MUST) carry a girl. Hopefully whoever my partner is, he have to be strong~~

I'm kinda worried cause Amanda's GS is good. Her standards are high..Seems like tonite I'll have to do extra training in my room (ahem~)

2009-06-13T03:44:00.002+08:00

It's you whom I'm missing these days.
After I decided to walk on this road to my fairy tale.
When will you return to me as God promised?
My smiles gives me away, telling that I'm lonely.
But no fear, as I'm preparing myself better for our future.
I'll love like no other.
And His promise is always true.
I won't go looking for you just yet...
For I know, in His perfect timing..
You'll appear.
And so I'll wait, with every second passing by.
I'll think of you when I start falling into traps.
Please promise me that I'll be your 2nd in your life.
And you'll have to know who's the 1st.
Darling, my sweetheart...I'm so in love with you.
Love that will never ever fade.
Getting more and more impatient as the Lord soothes my soul.
I will be with the Lord, until He sent you to me...

My love, I'll wait for you.
Remember to wait for me as well...
I love you.

2009-06-11T03:44:00.003+08:00

Ahh...I've been watching Kingdom Hearts II for quite some time.

I'm getting more and more desperate~

I saw the charm Kairi gave to Sora back Kingdom Hearts. I made one myself before, but then it broke...How sad.

If anyone could possibly make me one (or buy) I would be forever grateful...And I'm serious bout it~

2009-05-28T02:27:00.002+08:00

Darn it..!!

My comp is working, but not my internet..Having problems to connect till I nid to use the dial up style. Old skool sia~

Life's pretty eventful this time,
Got performances and shows everywhere..
Till I oso blurr blurr. O.o

And then, I know why I've been enoing the few days liao. It's an experiment for myself to know. Cuz my *ahem* is near and I'll get mood swings. Practically not swings just my mood will be down In The FREAKING VALLEY!!! So down till I got suicidal thoughts, Oh man!

And thus I know, when *ahem* is near. just be happy. *Knocks herself* Reminder.... >.<

2009-05-22T16:39:00.003+08:00

And my day sucked....

Woke up realising there's nothing left of me.
The traces I've been looking for is all gone.
And most importantly,
I've completely lost self control.

The very moment I stand here in the midst of this busy world, I thought,"Wouldn't it be a nice thing if I just fade away...Like how I used to?"

My life flashes images of beauty and awe as I decide to fly with the wind. Not caring what the world will think of me. It's just me...

The weight of the world is heavy upon my weak shoulders. And I'll always know, You're always there to carry me. Be ready to pick me up as I fall. Crying as I beg of You to have mercy upon my wrongdoings. I saw You sitting there, bright and pure as You should be. And then...

Reality

It hit me so hard, and I have no place to hide. I have nothing to make You happy. I'm just noone... But You choose to die for a nobody like me. Why? Lying naked on the floor, You came carrying the best linen in the world to cover me. I choked, "Why are You doing this?"

Because I Love You

And soon I know the hit from reality, is to bring me back to Your side forever. Not leaving anymore.

2009-05-09T14:21:00.003+08:00

Tell you what..I don't know what u've said..But Whatever U've said is still hurting..

Know why? I saw something I shudn't seen... I sometimes really wish u din say those words at all. But U alone said it...Wat words? U shud know it by urself....

2009-05-04T16:00:00.003+08:00

Alrites..Since I've got some time in hand I'll freaking update my blog.

Life's good.The End.

Nah..It wasn't. Just broke up with my current bf, going thru some heartaches. I'm stupid! That's all I realized. Not only that, I'm addicted to Night World Series, which describes love story in a very different way. While I don't have anyone to love..WRONG AGAIN! I have my friends, and parents and whoever that's nice to me. I can love them. Yea I could and I would.

The latest story I've finished yesterday night was the love between Galen and Keller. I mean Keller's character and personality attracts me so much and I feel like I wanna be like her. She loves Galen, but there's an important mission awaiting her to complete it. SO..She hides all her feelings and yet be caring enough to care for others. Until she completed what needs to be done THEN..POOF..She and the guy was together forever. I mean, it's reeallly cool to even think like that. Complete my life's goals. Then tot bout love stuff..

I'll always know I'm not alone. Either I have God with me all the time, and friends who are super duper caring. Blessed I guess...

Mood: Not Up Not Down, Just In Between

And uh..Yea this coming Friday which is the 8th of May. I'll be performing again together with the rest in Taylor's College. They have this event called the Taylor's Got Talent thingy.. Well, I wish all the contestants all the best!!

BTW, I have a really big biG BIG Wanted LIST!

1st. Calvin and Hobbes Comics!! (They're so funny together)
2nd. Night World Last Series- Strange Fate (Can't wait to see what happens next)
3rd. The Vampire Diaries- The Return: Nightfall (Didn't know the author will come up this one)

And the list goes on and on. (not hinting anything)

Ah..As you can see, if I'm not dancing or watching dance videos. I'll be reading tons of books. Which I'm glad I did, rather than hunting new bfs..Gosh, that scared me a lil. Yeap I'm like tat..Supposedly to move on to my next target..But it has to stop.

2009-03-22T15:34:00.003+08:00

No one bothers to explain.

All the pain the tears I've cried. Still You never said "goodbye".

I wished that I'll see my reflection through your eyes.

2009-02-14T16:05:00.002+08:00

Its all for nothing..

My past is hateful, it's horrible of what I did. I don't like it.

Btw...Life has got a new look to me. I still working in CBTL which is cool, getting extra pocket munny for myself. And yeap, teaching tuition to my korean neighbours. And oso..teaching dance in UGDN. Well, I never been so eventful in my life b4.(My friggin 1st time)

So long din blog. Forgot what I was supposed to write. Not looking forward to anything (especially ppl who still read my darn blog). U guys have no life!! Get a grip man..Get a job, it's fun to meet diff ppl everyday. I've not grown, especially in those areas (hmm..) but in my life oni.

Ah..Addicted to songs like A Little Not Too Over You, Mad and Thinking Of You. No intentional meanings, but just some nice songs I like to dance and get emotional with. Yes, I'm still the emo punk or whatever U think I am...Just so beat up my life. It's tiring, torturing and bitter. I got skinnier again. I like it..Someone told me so..lallalalalalalal....Im not telling what I have and what I got. U find it out urself..Btw, I changed my phone so all ya contacts are gone!!! Send me Sms and tell me who you are so I can save ur numbers up okie?(To Those Who Have My Numbers)

2008-12-29T17:12:00.001+08:00

Officially my blog is now dead~~ For like...4 months ++ ahahha... Been busy with life..Will update soon when I'm free..

LiKE I WILL!!! NO WAY!!!

Soon....(in 1000 years)..

2008-11-11T22:46:00.002+08:00

Hey!! This wasn't fair... I thought I told myself that I'll be the emo one the rest of my life. Seems like it's the other way round.. O.o

Well, my job from CBTL is super fun. I love making coffees and teas. I love tea latte, maybe u guys shud order Double Vanilla Ceylon Tea Latte. Why? Cause to those who loves milky and vanilla-ish tastes are perfect to fit this blend. hehhee.. (like advertising wei~)

Imagine drinking coffee everyday when u work. Well..Not such a big deal. But it's hurting my health leh!! I don't mind actually (life is short in fact) so I rather live it to the fullest!! Kinda tried almost everything in CBTL. I still like the tea latte (replaced the once my all-time-fav, Caramel Machiatto)

Had like 3 days of training. Feel so proud of myself. Got to meet new people, and well working with them is the best part. I'm still as usual. ONCE I gotten the pics taken together with the training I'll post it. (FREAKO!! I've been saying that since..??) Ah, what to say? Although my life is busy and tiring. At least I know I had my fun and I live it without wasting one sec!! So worth it man!!

My schedule is working in the morn (8.30-4.30) then dance. Till 1am!! HAHHA. I know I know...TRUST ME I KNOW!! It's dangerous rite? I'm getting my car back.I promise I'll be home early-ER~ Hope so. Dun trust me, I always like to lie bout all these stuffs. Haha! Not funny. I love to spend my time every minute and every sec into something I like. (FOR INSTANCE) I'd like to stay beside the one I like most of the time. Or i like hanging out with friends... NONSENSE~ I'm crapping already... SHUT UP!!!

Needa good night sleep tmr's a long day again~

2008-10-30T23:41:00.002+08:00

Okay...Officially I'm half doomed..

1st.. I'm really down-to-the-core anxious of my new job coming this sat.
2nd.. I have no idea what am I doing at this time (except for the dance
part)..
3rd.. I'm freaking myself out for no reason...at all.

Well, I'd like to apologise to Jac (ma lil sis) cuz..I threw my temper at her for some private reason. I don't like mentioning my reasons why I'm angry, maybe cuz it's somehow inapropriate. Or simply I just like to keep things to myself now.

I'm extremely glad that the Tuesday performance came out nearly perfect (I'd like to say that myself) Although I did (not to mention others did) some mistakes. As long as I'm offering all the praises..seriously ALL THE PRAISES AND GLORY to Him. The ultimate Guy that I'm trying hard to please most of the time. I know I'm not perfect, and by His grace I'm still standing tall today. And thank Jesus that God actually lent His Hand to help me out this few weeks.

I thoroughly grateful..Of what's happening in my life. As though the dream that I dreamt of every night coming true right before my eyes. It's so surreal..Yet it's so life..

Oh right..I suppose that I need to upload my photos oof my recent doings. FYI, my cam has gone out of battery.. And I'll recharge it soon enough (HOPEFULLY XD). I try to get the pictures posted.

And to others who'd like to drop by my blog every once in a while. I'd liek to say a big hank you for at least cring enough to know whetehr I'm still alive. hahhahaa, no joke. Ermm..Just telling you peeps that I'll start my work this sat (10am-5pm). Working 6 days a week and well, hopefully I can cope (which I don't think I can at all) Just pray with me, will ya? and If anyone's planning an outing anytime soon pls do tell me a week earlier. Usually after my work I'll go to UGDN to train my dance and stuffs. Yea..Busy all over again.

Any updates pls do tell me aight? I'd love to go shopping anytime soon. Right after my work or one of my holidays...XD Miss you peeps so much~

2008-10-26T03:17:00.003+08:00

A busy life...

Day No. 7846290 - Yvanna's exhausted. Basically, she's excited also. What to say? When someone has found their dreams coming true slowly step by step, they're actually too passionate to even think that they're tired. If they are doing what they like most.

Ah shut up~

Well, my busy life has lead me to an extreme diet. Meaning I'm already loss my weight (sometimes I do wonder if it's a good thing, since ppl always say I'm meaty) I'm 55kg before I join UGDN. And it has been that way ever since. But now...I'm 49kg..A freaking 6kg loss, in a week!! That's a lot..Maybe it's the sweat. For example, imagine me sweat a bowl of sweat every single day. Hmm..Not elaborate enough. Imagine..People pouring water on me..

Oh yeah...Tat's a lot.. heheh..Really and seriously, I got witnesses. Cause a singlet for me is not enough to soak up my sweat everytime I train. Tat's really crazy man. That's my theory of why I lost weight so fast in a week.

Okay, let's talk bout more personal things, like...hmm..I wonder what. Not much going on in my relationship life ever since my emo period went off completely from my blog posts. Well, noone seems to have any interests in me anymore. Maybe I should post up like !SINGLE GIRL FOR SALE! poster or advertisement. I don't care much anyways.

If I do, I wonder how much I do costs...Suggestions anyone?

Another happy thing came across to me this week. Like my mom buying an IPod Classic 120GB Black Version for me!! HAHAHA... I mean, that's really helping my dance so far. Well, all I know to repay her is to make her proud of me of my dance and..etc etc.. The main thing is to do at least a shining thing from this dance...

Oh, before I forget, the main person who helped upload the songs inside. LIKE FREAKING 5k++ songs!! How on earth man~ Somemore helped me to put japanese speaking videos inside (how sweet of him) and oso LOCKING VIDEOS!!! So freaking nice man..haha...I dont want mention names. Cause you know it's you (I know U read my blog..So it's U!!) Thanks a lot and big big hug (if u nid it) ^^

Alrites..I'm performing in Seremban next Tues. Can't believe it again. This week it's fun and rough and everything in between. I hope you guys enjoy this as much as I do from typing all this funny nonsense. Next time then~

2008-10-23T14:36:00.002+08:00

Wow~

I mean I can't believe my life's been working out for me so far... It's been areat journey. I've hurt myself and stand back up again. Let myself down, and yet I'm so satisfied with myself~

So many things have been happening lately. For example, I'm now learning dance from UGDN. And finally, seriously!! FINALLY, Joel let me perform with the rest!! FREAK!!!!!! I'm so happy that he even place me to perform with the rest of the crew. It's such an HONOR!!!!

oh..btw..I had an accident. HAHAH..of all things...I blame meself for being careless..Really careless..

OK!! So I don't talk bout unhappy things 1st... I just wanna celebrate my life..and ya..Dance is so fun..especially locking..^^

2008-10-14T18:13:00.002+08:00

Ahaha...I realised my blog is so dead with my emotional problems. o.o

Today, I applied a part time job nea my hse. All by myself, a girl who's always afraid to even make the 1st move, and I did!!

I'm so proud of myself~

Got this feeling as though I can take on the world for there's nothing to lose anymore!!!

This is stupid..I mean for others they're completely oblivious bout the fact I always like to depend on other ppl to finish the job for me. But ths time Is So Completely Different!! So, I'm on to take on whatever the world has to throw at me, on me, around me..whatsoever.....

I feel so happy cuz mom bought me a lot of stuffs I need to dance!! A pair of new shoes!! jacket~ singlet and cap~~ Yay..I mean those are for the stylings..hehe..Cuz I'm fasionable on the other side of the world..Somehow..Somewhere.. I GET IT!! IM TOTALLY CRAPPING MY HEAD OFF!! ALL BECAUSE OF THIS ONE SMALL THING I DID AND FEEL PROUD OF..so simple..so dumb.. I know...For the 1st time..I truly know...so funny..useless..weird..naive..

2008-10-10T00:22:00.003+08:00

Chapter 7: The Steps Taken

Sorrows come and go,
I realised when I do linger on it..

I get nothing.

But still my heart is still aching no matter how much I denied it.
Only songs can touch my heart. For instance, Steven Cravis' songs...
Ah~ How well played..

Soothing and smooth going~

Tomorrow's the day where I need to perform with Tom. And Sat is the day when I need to perform with the girls... My head is awfully filled with dances. (And yet, I still have time to think bout nonsense) Horrible, isn't it? The effects one leave on people. Busy with tons of dances, oh how I love Cheska's steps. Sexy, yet not dirttttyyyy!!! Nice move..

For once!! Heroes Season 3 came out. :3 So happy~ Hmm...Met Jac's fren (Kenneth) online..No more guys pls...I'm so scared of them already~ Heartbreakers!!! LoL Bias.... I love girls!! Blek!

2008-10-07T15:20:00.002+08:00

Chapter 6: Pieces Intact

I can't believe I did it again..
This time is so much worse than I thought...
Oh well, I'm the one who said it anyway..
Who cares what happens next?
Dance..Oh no!!
Great opportunity to step it up...
Hurt again..Healed, and hurt and healed...
STRESSES!!!!!
I hate myself for beng stupid..
I won't be anymore...
Don't try to even think bout anything (This is for you)

Alrite, start to update my life again.
Recently, I found out even my dog have menstrual cycle. (quite dumb huh?) And also, I've attended the Mini Street Festival in UGDN. Quite an extraordinary experience to dance with the instructors from the Phillipines. Especially I'm called to perform..together with them. I don't wanna waste this chance to brush up my dance skills!! So I accepted...evem though I got lots of steps to catch up. I never did house dance before...I never knew there's a beatboxer at the age of 17 can did so good..I never knew what was called a cypher..I never knew there's lotsa cool breakers who dance extremely well in Malaysia...I never knew what was like to watch pppl battle each other face to face..

I experienced that in just one day...

I'm so glad that the workshop's over. It's been a long week and busy too. Not that busy, oh but well...Busy mentally, busy brushing up my dance steps physically!! Quite worked up already..But there's more to come as I see..So I'm waiting for another breakthru in my dance before this year ends.

Oh..The instructors from the Phillipines are Melvin, JMasta, and Cheska. They're the coolest and funniest ppl I've met last week. Cheska showed me Midnight Sun (I din know she's just as crazy as me over Twilight)

My days of thinking bout nonsense is ending. Practically,a nonsense that slowed me down when I wanted to excel. So, I won't be thinking anything but dance. (ooohhh, I do love locking) Pieces intact while you're gone. Remaining heart that felt nothing but a fiery passion for dance. And don't ever think that you're gonna make me sad or what (no, not you) So, while I'm busy with my stuff I declared...

NO MORE NONSENSE!!

A word that I'll keep to it until I met my Edward.....

2008-09-18T14:02:00.002+08:00

Prelude to Chapter 6

You've cut me open...

Don't leave me hanging there by a thread, and there goes my happy ending.

Blog: So what's been happening lately?

Yvanna: Nothing much, just changed my name and also did a surprise bday
party.

Blog: Who did that for you? Was it yesterday?

Yvanna: Yeah, Jac planned for me. But in the end everyone just hang around
in ZEN. Nothing extraordinary happened.

Blog: So why do you sounded all so emo and sad?

Yvanna: Well, a lot of performance's stress' been getting to me. And
getting sensitive over some unimportant stuffs. Overall, I'm content of my
ability to dance and let it all out to God if I want to.

Blog: What performance is next?

Yvanna: Trust me..You wouldn't wanna know..It's cheerleading.(Shaking her
head off) But before that we're performing Step Up 2. I took the main girl's
part. I hope Tom will let me do with ease. Me and Mandy got a solo part in She's got no money in the bank. We're performing in the new club
opening behind StarhillI.

Blog: Great!! Continue to update me whenever possible. I bet those who are
reding me wanted to see your dance.

Yvanna: I will upload the videos. But I have to place it in Youtube 1st. So it's gonna take a while.

2008-09-17T05:17:00.002+08:00

20 years ago this day...
This time..I came into this world..
Unknowingly people are expecting me. My mom, dad, even grandparents...

Happy Birthday to myself. And many blessings to those who wished me.

Days are far behind me for being a child.
I need to grow up to take my ground.
Times has passed for me to have fun.
I need to be serious for whatever I do.

Friends who loves me, and parents who cares for me. Thank you for making my journey thru life worthwhile.

God, I love You for ushering me into this world. Taking care of me while I'm in my mom's womb. Preparing me to face this beautiful world physically. Safely brought me out of my comfort place.

You whom I once loved, for giving me a memory that would lasts till the end of time. For accompanying me thru this rough road a while. For letting me fall and see the beauty of flaws.

2008-09-16T14:06:00.008+08:00

Things we do when we're bored...

I know I haven't been updating my blog (of course, Lyd! We've been waiting!!) Okie..I'm really sorry for what I did okie!! Fine, since you guys cared enough to know what's been happening to me. Here are some picturs to prove that I'm still alive..LOL

Eating at TGIF got to order the JackDan's steak..It costs us a nuclear bomb in out purse while we ordered that..Thank God we're actually sharing..I also stuffed myself with lotsa food. Since mom told me I became skinny (although it's a good news. But not too skinny)

Lazy to update other camwhore pics. I'll do that other time (promise!!) Seriously..Haha..For us to rock the shopping mall with a trolley!! I knw Mall CRASHING!! I love to do that...

Yea..Wishing I'm still lil so I fitted myself into a Trolley!! Own personal vehicle without a steering wheel..And letting others drive u...That's pure scariness~

Did I mention I got a bf? Oh well, He's a black (although I seriously don't mind that~) But in a real form he's gold..O.Oll Yea, u'll find him in Midvalley Nike Shop...He plays basketball professionally and oso..here's a pic of me getting close with him.. XD

Jacq Jacq..And me..I forgot where i took this pic adi...Gotta remind myself again. Since after the disaster strikes I've been so busy with my life and forgot bout what happened ever since...It's like a dream.

Oh!! This is ancient!! Where the Nices Bdays. While i still have my fake long hair, together with some ncie formal dress~

I guess That's all I can post up at this moment..Hope I can do more in times to come..The happenings~~

2008-08-31T04:46:00.002+08:00

Chapter 5: The Minute

You won't find me there, my angel...

My dance crew (I mean our crew) has officially named Last Minute. From the Awakening to Last Minute.

Last minute performances, last minute projects, last minute choreography!! Great, I realised that name meant a lot to us (the dance crew) cuz we like to do things last minute. XD LoL...

Wooo..Hanged out with my usual gang (Jacq, the keys and Amanda). Din get to count down cuz they decided to watch movie. And forgot the movie's at 11.55pm!!! I can' believe we actually forgot our main plan. Went to TGI.F (still reminds me of you) Had Jack Daniel's Steak and oso Dragonfire Chicken. It's nice..I stuffed myself!! Hahaha...It's fun too...Having fun camwhoring in TGI.F while the waiters are like staring at us. Who cares anyway? Later we went to the movie (Zohan) and then went to check out Bar Celona. The Dj spun techno songs which doesn't prompt me to dance. I never liked techno~ I was thinking to get inspiration (choreography) from there. But in the end, we cant get to go in. Sook Chin asked her fren to bring us in. But he can't manage to..(Cuz we planned to go in and then chao) So we feel bad, imagine trying so hard to get ur frens to go in to the club but in the end they just stay there for like 3 mins?! Gosh..Tat'll be very disturbing, I mean, I do feel bad for it. So in the end oso din go in ler~

Now blogging in Jacq's hse, while others are relaxing in her room. Mandy reading novel, not to mention Jac T oso. Sook Chin onlining using Jacq's comp. Jacq chatting with the rest of us. And Amanda sleeping. Hahah...Funny~ I love my frens they're so cool, I mean, not only in dancing..But our friendship lasts for about 6+ years...Ah well...I love my life~

XOXO for those who walked by my side throughout my life...

2008-08-26T00:19:00.002+08:00

Chapter 4: The Struggle

In one day, you can wake up to think whether you're living the nightmare or not. Since I'm broken, why not broke myself into more pieces? When noone will ever bother to put you back again. Why feel down when one small matter trips you and let you fall along the road?

The struggle

What puts you through troubles after troubles and problems after problems..Sometimes you'll think you'll can't get over it. It's true, if that is what you told yourself.

Let's talk bout my life before I end up talking bout something that winds up completely different to what I'm about to share. LOL. Alright, life has been merciful to me ever since he's gone. And to that I would like to thank God for it. Well, you all know what I'm planning to do ever since when I was like..15, 16?? Yeah, back to the dance topic again.

Today, Puteri (one of the girls in my dance class) asks my groupie (the Awakening) to perform for her club's event..I'm not sure what I'll need. Most of it it's just mix dance, just like the ones I did before...I guess..Haha.. Kinda disappointed at myself cuz my mind's completely worked up for teaching dances and stuff..Oh boy!! 1st is because I'm still lingering in the past. 2nd is Im really stressed up for the teaching thingy!! There's like a few classes going on now. Had to keep track for all of them.

The performance is at Puteri's school. Seafield Usj 2. Great...Another secondary school.. Haha..(swt..) Oh well, there's nothing much to do anyways so yea.. Gotta come up with dance steps and stuff..Another struggle there.

Oh! Did I mention tat I pickeed up a tortoise on my way home? It crawled out to the main road... Being the animal-lover (except roaches!) I just stopped my car to pick it up. Place it in my home. Kinda funny though, it knew it was me who's gonna feed it so it just stared at me (with those watery round eyes) Great..I'll never resists these eyes. (in the end I fed it spring onion) I remembered once there's this kitten curled up like a ball in front of a shop..I just went and pick it up again. I mean, come on Lydia. Leave it alone already!! Well, I can't...So I at least placed it in a box and gave it to one of the boss of the restaurant who promised to take cae of the kitten. Which is good. It doesn't really looked like a stray cat. I mean I'll never mind all these little things I can do for it. So I'll just stop babbling bout it.

Life's pretty easy on me. Still hard on the edges. I'm still learning to take it.

PS: Japanese class is killing me. (I have to learn how to write and read and talk) Basically..I'm gone!! Exam's on the ju-gatsu sanju ichi nichi. Which means simply, Oct 30. Dead!

2008-08-19T00:11:00.002+08:00

Chapter 3: The Change

U will see me in another perspective that u never see me before. This dark side has its own candy. When everyone can dance, I'll dance better. In a way of movement tat ur eyes havent conceive it before. A way so sure I can handle myself, a way so hard I can blow u off.

Style is what make me this way. BITE THE DUST..

Dancing with my girls, project coming along well. And we'll step on the world, where u'll see us isolate ourself with different dance. U will see the Awakening...Next performance coming soon on mid of Oct..

2008-08-17T15:16:00.002+08:00

Chapter 2: The Great Escape

Times has passed, I wonder how many days I've been escaping my blog. Not willing to touch it, I've escaped myself into a world of my own fantasy. Sook Chin (practically Jacq) suggested me to read Twilight Trilogy, a story involving a young girl who has fallen in love with a vampire. LOL! But the actions inside are fantastic, I mean I can practically imagine how the director's gonna shoot the movie. It's coming out on 12th of Dec 08.

Throw it away, forget yesterday... I could make myself a great escape, rite now. I haven't been hanging out with the girls. Thus, my life is like plain water, without any flavour in it. Locking myself in the room, and so I'm sick.

Sore throat and blocked noses for past few days. I've even cancelled my sunday class cuz i dun wan my children to get it frm me. Haihzzzz....There's a lot of things I wouldn't wanna do now. Like BLOGGING!! But Mandy asked me to so..yea. I've obeyed her word. (Opps..Did I mention Dix asked too?) Oh my, well, people has been asking me to blog la okie? So here I am..Giving my best..

There'll be no pics, I'm too lazy to grab my cam. Just really rotting myself here. Oh! Sat I have a soccer demo together with Eunice. Well, cause we're the only girls, the other guys from other schools are like howling wolves waiting to pounce on us. HAhaha... It's funny for them to act tat way, I'm flattered. LOL. I bet they never know there are girls who plays soccer. After the demo me and Nice hanged out in Ikea. Of all places, and all shopping malls, I've enjoyed the very moment of it. No haunting memories of him. Which is good, I dun wanna rememeber anything.

I've driven so fast when I'm alone, wishing I'll get an accident and wake up having amnesia. I dun like to remember things I dun wanna remember. But still, it comes so near to me every single time, slipping pass me like a ghost of haunting memories. I hope I'll get memory loss soon, this will be the greatest escape for me.

BTW, I'm not emo-ing. Just feeling down and wanna die cuz of this DAM DAM DAM flu...Shit..I wanna kill myself!! Someone strangle me..

2008-08-09T22:01:00.002+08:00

Chapter 1: The Awakening

It happened and it didn't fade away. The intense feeling I had for the past few months left me wondered, "Have I actually been in it?" It came and went away...just like a dream. I have been captured by the wonders of his eyes. So beautiful and yet; so dangerous.

Saturday, 9 August 2008.
Forced myself awake, failing to realise I'm late for Dance Teacher's Meeting.

Something inside urged me to go on without him. For I know, he'll never care for me as much as before. So I sat down, on my beloved sister's bed. New Moon by Stephenie Meyer, the climax came when I slowly and carefully relive the history (or maybe, the story) in my mind. Constantly felt the heart break as I read how Edward spoke to Bella, telling her that he's leaving. And it'll be like as if I'd never existed. Those were the last words he spoke to Bella. Touched, teared and reacted the same way like how she's reacting.

But the end is the starting of something new. Something I'll never see it coming, the awakening of my desire and dream which I left hidden long time ago. A dream which goes forth and there's no turning back. A memory I will left behind, you can take everything. Not my dream.

2008-07-29T16:27:00.002+08:00

Oh yea, I said I'll post some pics rite? Sheessshhh...Sorry folks I didn't post up..I'll post it up tmr alrite? Can't wait to see me bac on my feet rite? Haha, I thought this is the end..More to come...Why The End i thought..But it's gonna be hard to find someone you really like again.. I gotten over it..It hurts when it heals..Because of the fact I knew you're gone.. Thanks for everything especially the memories you gave..Memories will be fine with me..

OKOKOKOKOKOK!!! I'll post the pics up..not the videos..I know how, just that it's too complicated if it's from my camera.

Remember memories are better off without and nice and sweet pics..It's just a fragment of memory. Like KINGDOM HEARTS... Oh, such a nice game..Heard they're coming out another one...Crap, I'm really babbling~ Cant belive Jac Tan actually reading novels!! Can You?? She don't like novels..And she's reading it..While she's doing tat every moment I'll be doing sit ups and yea..Can you BELIEVE TAT? I'm still on with the training abs thingy..And my legs are stronger now..Training particularly everything..

Mandy says I'm like a guy..She said oni guys have emo workouts..Yea..I'm a guy, So what? I like workout..I'm fat..HEHEHEHE, NOT NOW LIAO!! WeeeE~~

EH, girls tell me when are we going to karaoke again? and oso down to singy..(Ya, dun be surprised) I'm not gonna cut it off because of someone..EH, I shud visit u rite Ah DixZ!! Maybe you tell me where got nice place to play...LOL..Maybe not..Heard that you're REALLY busy..>.<

2008-07-29T15:14:00.002+08:00

"Hey Kay..", Rick called out in a distance. "Yes?", Kayla turns around as she approaches her house. "You free on Friday?" "Yea, I guess so. Why? One of your help-me-pick-my-cloths session again?", smiling as she said it. "Y'know me too well. I'll come pick you up from your house as usual and we'll go aight?" "Alrites", Kayla replied as she enters her house. And Rick walked away.

He just invited me to go pick out his cloths again. Man, this sucks. Oh, he always walks me home even after my classes end like way later than his. He's really that caring and sweet. I guess I'll be busy on Friday then. I wonder what I'll wear...Oh I'm a fashion disaster. But to my own surprise is I can pick good cloths on people. And I'll be a mess myself. I'll just wear what I wore today and that's it. I don't have enough money to buy myself nice T-shirts and jeans. So, I'll just wear this stupid looking school uniform. WAIT A MINUTE!! I can match it up with these pair of sport shoes. YES! It wont be that typical school girl look.

"KAYLA?!", my mom just love to see how surprised she is everytime I wear an outfit that..surprised her. "Don't you ever tell me you're gonna wear that out.." Okay, now she's worried that I might bring a disaster to this whole world if I'm wearing this out with Rick. "Yes, I'm wearing this out with Rick, mom" "But..but don't you think it's a mess? He's a nice boy. You know what I mean." "Mom, it's not a date...", I said it. "..even though I wished it was.."

"Kay, you home?" Great, he's here. "Coming.."

"Hey, nice to see you out. But what's with the uniform?" "I've got nothing great to put on so.." "Got it. Anyways, I'll bring you to this shop. You'll like it." We walked for hours in the mall, laughing to jokes he pulled off. And he's here..I wished time would just stop. This sec would seem like it's forever in my heart. The way he laughs was all set out to melt my heart.

"Kay, don't be surprised alrite?" "To what?" "I'm introducing my girlfriend.." No, this just can't be true. I mean, He didn't even mention he's got a girlfriend all along? And I'd foolishly walks by him whenever he asks me to? This is really gone out of hand. I can't breathe..Tell me, Rick..This is an outright lie.. It's just a lie..A LIE... Rick, say something.. I can't breathe..No, it's choking me..

"Are you alrite?" "I'm completely fine.." No, You're not..Say it to him..You love him..C'mon, 3 simple words..Simple and powerful words. "Rick..I'm not feeling well.." "I'll send you home then, before that, I'll bring to to the doctors" "I just want to go home" No..Did I just raised my voice? Oh no..Great..My head hurts.. "Kay, Kayla..Wake up.." "We need to get her to the hospital" Hospital? Why? I'm fine, I'm completely fine. Okay..This is mad.

2008-07-29T01:21:00.003+08:00

Recruiting Dancers Into A Group. Searching for Dance Competition.

Try to be commited to practices. I'll inform when and where is the practice date.

For hiphop, breakers and so-called fast dancers (routines). No latin..THX^^

2008-07-28T01:24:00.002+08:00

It's been the longest winter without you

I didn't know where to turn to

See somehow I can't forget you

After all that we've been through

Go in, come in, thought I heard a knock

Who's there? No one, thinking that I deserved it

Now I realize that I really didn't know

You didn't notice, you mean everything

Quickly I'm learning to love again

All I know is, I'ma be okay

Thought I couldn't live without you

It's gonna hurt when it heals too, oh yeah

(It'll all get better in time)

Even though I really loved you

I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to

(It'll all get better in time)

How could I turn on the TV

Without something there to remind me?

Was it all that easy

To just put aside your feelings?

If I'm dreaming, don't wanna let, hurt my feelings

But that's the path, I believe in

And I know that, time will heal it

You didn't notice, you mean everything

Quickly I'm learning to love again

All I know is, I'ma be okay

Thought I couldn't live without you

It's gonna hurt when it heals too, oh yeah

(It'll all get better in time)

Even though I really loved you

I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to

(It'll all get better in time)

Since there's no more you and me

It's time I let you go so I can be free

And live my life how it should be

No matter how hard it is, I'll be fine without you

Yes, I will

Thought I couldn't live without you

It's gonna hurt when it heals too, oh

(It'll all get better in time)

Even though I really loved you

I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to, yes, I do

(It'll all get better in time)

Thought I couldn't live without you

It's gonna hurt when it heals too, yeah

(It'll all get better in time)

And even though I really loved you

I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to

2008-07-27T22:33:00.002+08:00

Why do u have to break everything I've given u? Ignore me..my heart's broken..i nid something to let it out to. Sorry if u're reading this..maybe u're not, u're probably busy doing watever u wanna do..It's really stupid of wat u did to me...Maybe u dun feel pain..Oni i do..But then u shudnt asked so much of me...I feel used..U asked i agreed..and u left me here all alone...In my own shell..empty shell...U tot it's serious...I think it is too...But..A SERIOUS BROKEN HEART..tats wat u gave to me...How come? This is really stupid..I'm starting to think wat ifs..what of i din agree...I din accept..wat if? What if Im dead? I never tot u will actually do this to me...maybe..I shud just let u go...I got a few good reasons to let u stay...But i just let u go...I tell u...If u're bak...and if i still feels the same...dun ever think tat I'm gonna let u go this easily...This time it's for wat u're doing...for u to build ur future..with or without me...because...Im so sure..
So sure wat's gonna happen next...Maybe a girl like me dun deserve u..i said it again...But u said i deserved every single inch of u..(maybe u din)..Fine..but u make it so sure to me we're not gonna give it all up so easily... U broke the promise...U broke my heart... U make me remember wat we did is real.. U make it like a lie... U make it feel like a dream..A dream i dun wanna wake up...But i did...It hurts..Does it hurt u to say tat too? (i wonder)...U decided.. It's ur prblem...u..Shudve shared with me...maybe we'll work it out...at least we'll try work it out...We din even fight... We..

There's no more we..It's just me now...I'm broken..Thank you so much..( I know u gonna ignore me till u come bak) I dun care anymore... Cuz..It's just me..Against the world..

2008-07-23T22:57:00.002+08:00

I'm picking up my pieces as I walked thru endless days and nights..

I'll always understand why u clicked off frm me..At least I'll try to understand..

Then why at this particular night..The atmosphere is suffocating me?

It choked me into rolling my tears down once more...I admit, I haven't been crying for a long time..

This night when I post this stupid little insignificant post..

I'm gone..

Just for a moment

So tat you won't hear from me...

I'm sorry...I know I've been really annoying..

Forgive me...

2008-07-19T23:29:00.002+08:00

Where on earth is my camera?!?!

Seems like it's out taking some pictures again~

Oh, oh!! Did I tell you bout the Dance Graduation Night 08?

It's AWESOME!!! We..(Jac, Tracy, Grace, Tammy, and the rest of the dance school gang)danced till late..(Like 12am!?)

There's more Latin dances than freestyle (modern jazz) So..We'll let the oldies get the hang of the dance and then..

BOOM!!

Freestylers came in..Thanks to Justin..He requested a freestyle song to be played..So the DJ mixed Sexy Back and 4 Minutes back to back..

It's really cool..But noone went on the dance floor..(Yea, u get it? shy ppls) Then Stanley screamed my name and asked me go out dance..

Obliged..I did what he told..

And all of them came together..

Did i mention..oso..I dance with a formal dress? Great~ I spun myself and..showed something..(Dun even imagine man..It's embarassing) Well, noone told me anytging and i continued to dance while Tracy darling was really HIGH high HIGH..She is..Oh well, what's the big deal anyway..

I'll upload some of the nice video of our performance..But it'll be on the next post..Not quite sure how it'll upload itself though (haha) Have to find tat out myself..

And thus, finally, I have been trying to get myself realy busy..And it still doesn't work because ofthe fact tat I'm still missing someone..I hate this man..Emo-ing currently..toking to my pet korkor...

2008-07-13T22:46:00.002+08:00

Days passes by,

And u weren't here to comfort me...

But it's alrite..

I grew so much..

Emotionally..Physically (no doubt!) oso Mentally..

Tat I tot I can't live without seeing u..

But I was wrong...

I'm much stronger than wat I think I am..

Because of u..

U helped me grow..

U're my inspiration..

Thank u so much...

2008-07-08T13:54:00.004+08:00

I have no idea why I post all these pics up.. Maybe I'm building my abs..

That's why..

Every one of these pics..
Their tummies are so FIRM!!
Freaking firm..

My tummy oso beginning to take shape..
Not to say I'm fat or what..
Just..wanna be firm..

They're the best inspiration for me to workout..
Continuously..
So freaky...
Later my abs firmer than theirs I'll die..

+.+''

2008-07-06T00:59:00.003+08:00

I miss you..

Tat's all I can say..

I'll wait for you..

No matter how long's the day..

Eventhough we're so far apart..

I know somehow..

Our love blooms from the heart..

We will be together somehow, somewhere..

When the time comes..

It's gonna be you, I swear..

Thousand words never describe how I feel..

Million feelings never shows how this is real..

I've always missed you..

Even you're away from me, it's true..

I will pray for your success..

Even my mind's in such a mess..

Hopefully this will make you smile..

And for tat,

I'll walk a thousand miles...

Thousand words never describe how I feel..

Million feelings never shows how this is real..

2008-07-05T22:50:00.002+08:00

This is the most amazing solo popper I've ever seen..

Presenting Salah

Part 2

Amazing, I wish someday I can be like him..^^

2008-07-04T00:38:00.002+08:00

Oh, another great day another great help~

I'm lazy to post any pictures..
Since the happening pics are already been posted u by my beloved sistas..
LOL..what a joke!!
I cant believe myself saying this..
INFLUENCE MAN!!
this is crazy..

Oh, the reason hy I wanna blog is oso this
ONE GOOD NEWS
Rite, you'll be asking wat good news..

I'LL BE PERFORMING ON THE GRADUATION NITE!!

Dun see it this way
It's the greatest opportunity for me to show wat I've got
And tape it..
And...And..

What for I tell you guys wat I'm planning next?
hehe..Lots more to come..!!

It's part of my puzzle to solve wat this life has for me..

You wait and see..

2008-07-02T16:49:00.002+08:00

Ah great..I wanted to blog my life and it's all gone.

Well, I haven't died..In case you din notice.

Just tat my frens like to blog interesting news bout thier life

(which involves me in it)

Into their blog..

So nice of them

Okie, yesterday noon I went out with one of my fren.

And after the fuss, s/he kinda lecture me.

Bout wat?

My life..

And what I gonna do with it..

Great, again one of these big reasons why.

Well, they said it rite cuz,

I realy havent been doing much lately.

Seriously..

Later in the evening which I have to go work.

In my dance studio (wasnt actually mine...oh well)

As a receptionist.

Not expecting much ppl there.

It was rather quiet according to the former receptionist..

So i brought my close peeps along.

And to my surprise,

My dance principal is there.

Teaching private class to these couple.

And a few students practicing their moves for competition..

Everything was smooth sailing till then..

This OLD thought came up.

What are you doing here, Not doing anything?

Hu was tat?

It was me who's asking the great ol' question again..

So, millions of questions came rite up after tat thought.

As i wrote it all down to one piece of paper.

And decided on what to do on my life.

Told my parents bout the plan.

Kena screwed KAOKAO!!

Argued with them a lil while,

And greeat..Ending Im the one's who's got hurt..

Cried a lil, and stopped.

Well, I'm not gonna give it al up tat easy..

I tot of this DAM plan for the past few hours

AND i'm not gonna let u guys screw it.

So,

Now Im taking it slow..

Reeeaaallllyy SLOW..

Step by step

Hopefully,

The next time I brought the plan up to thm again..

They won't screw me with tat dumb reason..

Oh God,

Settle it for me pls..

Help me~

Although's like tat..

I'm not gonna give up.

Till u (my parents)

Accept what I can give..

Since u asked me to do something bout it.

I did..

So,

Let me do it..

And it's not for tat dumb ol' reason tat u give..

He's not even worth what I gonna do.

This is my life.

Not his..

2008-06-25T17:23:00.003+08:00

I find myself standing on this place

Where everything around me is static, unmoving..

Am I in a dream?

A dream tat I'll wake finding myelf in a world where God places me?

Is this real?

All I know is my feelings for u will never fade

My mind is full of ur image before u left me...

Miss u so much

Tat I cant find any words to let u stay any longer..

I think I've used up wat I need to use up to impress u..

This is who I am...

I'm a girl..

An ordinary girl tat dun deserve anyone to love..

An ordinary girl tat noone will ever turn their head to even look at..

A girl tat can't hold what she treasures the most...

She dun have any courage..

She's naive..She likes to enjoy the moment she's living in..

She dun care what's in the future..

She's simple to impress yet complicated to understand..

She's impatient...She likes to be entertained..

She's lonely, but yet she's got close frens..

She's rare, but somehow most girls are like her...

She's me..

Sometimes I dun even know who I am anymore..

Confused when there's noone to tok to..

Will u accept me as I am?

Or u'll just ignore me like the rest?

Will u be the special one I'm looking forward to?

Will u be mine to treasure?

Will u care for me?

Even if u dun

I still got one person I can go to..

My Jesus will be there for me..

When I'm lonely..

When I need someone to tok to..

Jesus..I'm still a sinner..

Thank You for not ignoring me..

And thanks for saving me..

P/S: Currently listening to Say(all I need) by One Republic..(they're awesome man!!)

2008-06-21T18:48:00.002+08:00

Rumours have me captured in amazement..Saying tat I'm already coupled~ hmmm..IS TAT TRUE?

Fact 1. Yes, im in love with my dear..but tat doesnt mean im in a relationship..
Fact 2. Eventhough im in a relationship i dun nid to tell the whole world
bout it..
Fact 3. I like to kip things private now..FOR NOW!!
Fact 4. Yes, sometimes im despressed when i miss someone badly..(Dun tell me u havent see girls EMO b4)
Fact 5. Dun try telling things (bout me) tat u not even sure of to other
ppl (Hate this man!)
Fact 6. Rumors kills..Oh well, since im being treated like one of the celeb..I dun mind tat anyway..NID SOME paparazzis then..*oh stop
flashing*
Fact 7. I being stupid rite now..As u read on some nonsense actually pops up!
Fact 8. Tots going thru my head now...*memories flashing b4 me* IM GONNA DIE!! of boredom..
Fact 9. Many people thinks bout whether IM COUPLED OR NOT when they read Fact1,2&3..
Fact 10. I've completed 10 facts bout myself for now..All I nid now is..U to do one when u're totally bored
like me..And yea..Have Fun..

As u can see, im bored..Dunno what to post bout anymore. Thanks to my frens i've came up with brilliant ideas to entertain myself..

2008-06-18T22:52:00.003+08:00

My 40th post..After I finished teaching my freestyle class in Kota Damansara..

The class overall is good, there's like 3 girls who knew how to dance before. They're quite good at it too, the styles still not there yet..I bet I gonna teach the class some techniques next week..

I'm missing U like crazy..Havent been toking for like 3 days!! U know how much I wish u're here with me?! At least, a 'hello' or 'bye' would be enuf...Darling, pls tok to me..I'm getting weaker in love by the moment. Feels like I hit the ground and everything's getting clear. Reality keep on hitting on me, feel as though I'm not ur girl anymore... I HATE this feeling, can u pls make it go away?

Well, I'm missing him more and more even when I'm typing this..HATE THIS MAN!!! Someone pls save me by just tagging me. At least I'm occupied with stupid tots in my head...

2008-06-17T04:27:00.010+08:00

Marie Digby's

Say It Again

The thing about love
Is I NEVER saw it coming
It kinda ~crept up~ and took me by !!surprise!!
And now there’s a voice inside my heart that’s got me wondering
Is this true, I want to hear it one more time

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Just a little louder

Say it again for me
Cuz I LOVE the way
it feels when you are telling me that I’m
The only one who blows your
mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you’re in love

Thing about you is you know just how to
get me
You talk about us like there’s no end in sight
The thing about me is that I really want to let you
Open that door and walk into my life

And it feels like it’s the first time
That anybody's ever brought the sun without the rain
And NEVER in my whole life
Have I heard words as beautiful as when you say my name

2008-06-15T01:48:00.002+08:00

Eekk...

I HAVE FINISHED MY DANCE EXAM!!! FINALLY...long hours of waiting (seems like forever though)..I'll tell the whole story out...

4.00am - Jac's practicing her dance steps in her room...
- Wat's it gonna do with me? Cuz I'm sleeping in her room and thus, I din get a good sleep b4 the exam.. >.<
9.00am - My sis (Jac Tan) woke me up..Which is late..Supposedly to be awake by 8.30am
10.00am - DISASTER!!Can't find my pants I've planned to wear in the exam!!
10.30am - Improvised my costume..changed it to yellow singlet and black jazz pant with yellow stripes..Supposedly to be nicer jazz pants with half top showing my abs (I dun have one) so yea...
10.40am - Wanted to drive to dance school and found out my pant's is in the car..ZZZ..big joke...
11.00am - Reached dance school..Went and support my frens who're taking the exam oso...
1.00pm - The time slots delayed so much and we're way bak time for wat we've planned..Mine's even worse...My exam starts at 3.20pm supposed to be finishing my GOLD level dance exam adi ler...
2.00pm - My frens all finished their 2 level exam (SILVER and GOLD) which is vry good..And they're following the plan so they abandoned me in the school and went home prepare themselves fo later..
3.20pm - My 1st SILVER level exam... Waited it for few hours FULL of nervousness...I wanna die!! SUPER crazy time...Miss my sweet heart suddenly..So i flipped my phone and see his pic..hehe (RANDOM!!)
4.00pm - Finished my GOLD level!! Finally... Drove straight to Jacq's hse..Prepare myself for the party for Eunice and Bernice...
7.00pm - Went bak to my hse and switch car..then go to Izzi with my mom (Together with my frens la)
7.30pm till 12.40am - Party like a wild girl..For once I battle with Sam Oh and won..He cant tahan the sexiness (I think)...LOL!!! Dance like crazy la cuz finished off my dance exam so nothing to lose anymore...
Now - Blogging the events today and looking at my frens fighting each other...And they're staying over in my hse...GREAT!! I gonna miss my night's sweet dream...

2008-06-14T01:41:00.004+08:00

Decided to post a simple and easy one b4 I vsit my dreamland..Hehe..Hope u wouldn't mind reading some nonsense of my life so far~

Blog:You're totally crazy Lyd! You know the dance exam's in a
few hours and you're still blogging?!
Lyd:Yea..I know..I'm really crazy..Cuz I need to release some
stress out...
Blog:Don't release it out on me..Ppl's reading me..Can't U
see??
Lyd:Well, to tell U the truth..I can't see who really reading u
(my blog) Cuz simply I'm not U!!
Blog: You're hopeless..*smacks itself against a wall*
Lyd: Everyone's been tellin me tat..I know..
Blog: *unlocking the door*
Lyd: Dun go just yet..I STILL need U to release my stress...
*Blog runs out the door*
Lyd: Hey! I said DONT GO!! Come back u..*chases after
Blog*

And so...I caught my Blog..And I forced it to post this up..And
the conversation above..Yea..I'm cool..Maybe I shud sleep now..YUP I SHUD!!
Nites all!!

2008-06-11T04:15:00.010+08:00

A day out with my didis (WaiHon and ChunHong), Tracydear and my sis (Jac)..

The guys are so shy at camwhoring but at last...

The results of getting familiar with the camera..

A bond with the cam thus born!

2 NEW CAMWHORES!

Btw, They're really good at it..especially ChunHong..Not WaiHon though..

He's still shy at tat moment..
Later on~ Not anyMore!

Trying to be Cool..But tak jadi~

Pose 1, pose 2, pose 3, pose 4...

Trying to see wat time? Maybe not!

We're not helping each other!

At last, it's me again! Saying good luck to those going to National Service.

2008-06-11T03:29:00.007+08:00

Requested from Tracydear...Pls say thx cause it's really hard for me t go upstairs to get the cam..Since my room now is messed up by some construction man who're trying to fix the dem aircond!! The fan sux cause it makes a lot of noise and yea, I'm sleeping with my sis tonite!

The girls tat planned up the outing and (not really) suprised her in this dinner..

It was fun..I should be inside..But well..My cam, mine to take the pics..

The best is yet to come..

The fresh mussels simmered in white wine and some herbs..

Owh..So heavenly as it goes into ur mouth...

We took a lot of pics for the food..
Dun ask why...It's kinda funny..

Because they're the ones got to travel in our stomach..
Some memories of them before they changed to something else..

This is the one and oni angelhair pasta i liked to eat in Italliannies..

They really placed a nice name to tat thin pasta..

Trust me...I'm getting hungry as I post this up.. (LoL)

The Risotto is really nice!! Btw, this is seafood risotto..

There it is!! The bday girl and her present frm MichO and Tracy..
Really pretty rite? I mean the girl..*nodding in agreement*

2008-06-10T04:23:00.005+08:00

I just realised my blog's time is totally out!! Omg.. No wonder all my timings are running around all crazed up! >.<

In the days I missed you
In the nite I dreamt of you
Tell me, am I
obsessed bout you?

Dear Jesus,
I truly thank You for all tat you've done in my life. I realied as what
You've placed in the future is slowly revealing itself like petals of flowers blooming right before me. I do pray whatever's in the future will be fruitful for what I'm
doing now. Amen. ^^

So, like you can see the time when I'm posting this. OUTRAGEOUS!! I'm crazy for not being in my dreamland at this time *slaps herself on the forehead* I gotta go then..See you people really soon.

P/S: I promise the pics will be out in the next post..Dun be angry aight?

A Change In Return

2008-06-10T02:45:00.000+08:00

A change of template for me means a change in my character.
As you can see, no matter how "man" I wanna be..I just can't..
And love can make a girl girl..More feminine I guess..

Well, the one who change me to a more feminine side is..Love
I can say it's my dream finally came true.
To be a girl at least..
Although I still can't write beautiful poems to describe the wonderful feeling I'm having now..
Might as well be transparent to the ones reading this..

No:
I wont reveal who my boy is...
I'm not telling whether I'm in a
relationship (so you all can make a blind guess)
I am not lying

Yes:
I'm in love..
I really like my boy for a long long time..
I'm kinda
cheating on Josh..(not to reveal the full name)
I'm really sorry to say I've
broken up with him..
I regreted telling Josh I wanna couple while trying to
forget my boy..

The reason why I really regreted is I dont have enuf courage to tell my boy how much I like him..Which is, in this case, saddenning..
Because I knew if I have told..I wouldn't hurt other ppl's feelings..

Sorry:
Josh, for making ur life so hard, but thanks for all the care u gave
thru this one year..
My friends, for making u all worry bout me, and using
up ur brain juices to think bout my probs.. And oso finally..God, for not
talking to You for really long..But I did tok to You (well, I think You're the
Only One who knows everything now)

Still, life isn't so hard to live with when you're with ur friends..
1st post in this new skin..

Missing You Badly

2008-06-09T04:08:00.000+08:00

My goodness...Look at the time and I'm still thinking bout you..

Look at my face I'm still in love with you..

Wonder whether what I said will affect you..

If it does then I know you feel the same way too..

Missing you badly ever since you're gone..

Hoping you're still doing fine wherever you are..

I'm not the type of girl tat types mushy thingss..

Not the type tat expose the real me in front of ppl...

But since you're special I'll do it...

I really dun wan you to go..

But still I cant make you stay..

You're not beside me now..

Noone embraces me like you do..

Misiing you like crazy now..

Dreamt of you..

Waiting for you to come bak...

Cuz simply my feelings for you is still here...

Few Apologies and Emotional Moments

2008-06-06T01:31:00.000+08:00

By now, I can see my bestie (Tracydear) screaming towards me wanting some photos tat I took from Jacq's birthday...

May is the busiest month celebrating different people's birthdays and preparing for my dance exams...

Great..The exam's in a week's time and I'm here typing bout some nonsense and blogging...

Wishing tat some frens of MINE would actully forgive me for taking tat long to post up her photos...

I won't post it up on this post...I'm so sorry..REALLY MEAN IT!!

Need a few moments to release my stressful dance steps and personal reasons to EMO a while...

To recall..

Tmr's the day which one of my fren is going to somewhere to study..

gonna miss him like crazy...

I won't tell you who yet... BTW, he's a sweet heart...haha...

Ah well..He'll be gone going in a few hours...

Counting down the minutes and seconds..So hard to let it all go...

But well..

There's something in this world which a brilliant guy invented..

I neglected the convenience ever since i got it...

But now I KNEW THE IMPORTANCE!!!

PHONE..or maybe MSN (IM)

Oh..how i thank God for placing me in this century...

The days waiting for you to come back is LONGER than the days living not knowing who you are to me..

Boy..How I gonna miss you when you're gone...

I wished I had the courage to tell you my feelings earlier..

At least we still have time together...

But yet, everything's moving so fast..

And you're going into your future and me into mine...

Hoping tat our path in this future will link side by side...

Cuz i wanna spend my days with you..

A Happy Day To Remember..And You Know Why

2008-06-02T00:29:00.000+08:00

A day to remember..

Let's consider today to be my best happiest day..

Everything happenned so unexpectedly..

Tat's when you took my breath away..

It's so captivating tat I kept on reminding myself

It wasn't a dream...

Because you made it true and real..

It can do such things to me tat I can't even imagine..

It melt my heart..

Tingle my emotions...

And it made me smile the whole day without realising

I'm doing tat..

Tat's how you take it from here...

My Only Wish for in 2010

2008-05-31T01:41:00.000+08:00

Wish I can see you again,

Miss you so badly

Tat I can't think

How's it's like living in a world not knowing you..

Maybe my life would be better off,

But I don't want tat..

Cuz I know you and mostly I don't want you to go..

To a place where there's no me to teman you..

What kind of nice place would tat be?

Even so if you insists on going,

I trust tat you'll come bak..

Cuz plainly I want you to come bak..

A heart tat's missing you so badly..

Would you wanna leave behind all tat?

I don't think so...

Cuz I know you and I'll wait...

Whatever it takes...

To complete my wish for 2010...

May 26...Happy Birthday DixZ

2008-05-26T17:54:00.000+08:00

Yes, this is the birthday boy's cheeky face... +.+"

And he's pretending to eat his "cake"..You've guessed it!

We're gonna stack it all up and put candles in it..

Some random people doing random things in the party

The party's on the 24th May..oh well..

Takes forever for me to blog it anyway~

From the left~

Half of Tracy (haha) ,

ermm..I dunno how to spell his name..Y.K.

..tat's how I called him O.O

Nick Heng (didi..)

Gabriel..(Tracy knew him thru facebook)

the Back of Jac's head..

and tat's it!!

People playing games..

While other busy taking pics~

Somehow I managed to distort Dix's face ONLY..

I wonder why..?

Maybe he's moving too much..

Thinking of what pose he supposed to use..

Certain times..

We feel bored in the party..

Thank God I have my camera..

And thus..

Born 3 temporary

~CAMWHORES~

*Yiak Yiak*

Aunty Wendy taking Tau Fu Fa
Only 3 of the camwhores managed to eat it though..
Cuz..
We're taking pics in the kitchen..
HAHAHHA..
The others can't get to eat it..
Cuz Dix's grandma paiseh to bring out the TauFuFa
She said the TauFuFa too soft and mushy..
So oni we ate it..o.o

This is the Donut Cake..

Takes forever to light it up..

There's like 18 small candles!!

Not the traditional

One big candle

And 8 small ones..

And some of them decided to go
To the park near Dix's hse (I mean his aunty's hse)
Saying it is a traditional..
Since every single year they went..
So..yeaps..all went..

Guys played Bball
And girls camwhore..
ooo..It rhymes~~

I volunteered to look after they guy's wallets..and handphones..
And taking some pic of the guys playing Bball..
Sowee for the bad pic.. >.<

Later on tat midnite..

Me, Jac, Tracy, Y.K. and Dix

Went out to yum cha~

And while Dix sending Y.K. bak..

We oso decided to take a good look at his Bungalow..

I din take any pics..

It wouldn't be decent of me anyway..

Miss my face? hehe

So i took one nice pic at the bak of Dix's car while he drove Y.K. home..

Muax!!

Ou ya..Happy 18th Birthday!!

Scam in an SMS And a GREAT LIFE

2008-05-17T22:21:00.000+08:00

I received this sms frm Wai Hon (my didi),

Another frm Nick Tan (my soccer dude),

Saying that there'll be a

HUGE,

GIANT,

BIG

radiation wave circling Malaysia...

Believe it or not...

The truth is OUT!!

Checkon th link below..and y'all'll know..

http://crystal.thinktankmag.net/?p=642

It's other ppl's blog..lol

Big LOLS to those who followed the instruction..

I'm very proud to say..

IT"S A SCAM!!!

Btw, my mom, Che Siong and Gil (my bro)

Went for massage near my hse..

And I'm stuck here blogging some uninteresting news

Bout this sms I've received..

Oh well,

Seems like my fun days are far gone..

And Monday is COMING!!!

GONE GONE GONE!!

Great i gonna redo my nails again..

Since the design is GONE!!

Great..my life's been great all the time..

I Will Be by Avril Lavigne

2008-05-16T22:22:00.001+08:00

There's nothing I could say to you

Nothing I could ever do to make you see

What you mean to me

All the pain, the tears I cried

Still you never said goodbye and now I know

How far you'd go

I know I let you down

But it's not like that now

This time I’ll never let you go

I will be, all that you want

And get myself together

Coz you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I’ll be with you forever

To get you through the day

And make everything okay

I thought that I had everything

I didn’t know what life could bring

But now I see, honestly

You're the one thing I got right

The only one I let inside

Now I can breathe, coz you're here with me

And if I let you down

I'll turn it all around

Coz I will never let you go

I will be, all that you want

And get myself together

Coz you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I’ll be with you forever

To get you through the day

And make everything okay

Coz without you I can't sleep

I'm not gonna ever, ever let you leave

You're all I’ve got, you’re all I want

Yeah...And without you I don’t know what I’d do

I can never, ever live a day without you

Here with me, do you see,You're all I need

........

I never really told how much admire her,

Her attitudes and styles and songs...

In total,

...She's my idol...

(I know I know..no idols)

Well, she's the one I really admire and yea..

She rock my world!!

Extremely Random

2008-05-16T14:08:00.000+08:00

I am really bored..

Trying to figure out some Rubik's puzzles..

But the freaking guy, his brains is comepletely overwhelming..

I have no idea why I posted this up..

It's just another Friday afternoon which I have nth else to do..

Btw, I'm toking to Sook Chin on MSN at the same time..
She not replying me, so I'm really bored..

OMG!!! There's bugs coming frm everywhere...

Ou Gosh, I'm rotting..Pls help me~

Josh asked me out..But I lazy to go..

Since tonite my mom suggested tat we watch Narnia..

So I'm waiting..

As the bugs are chewing my legs off..

I still can type (cuz I still got my hands)..

Great one finger's off..OMG!!

I gotta type my life out with my forehead...

Tis ish an SOs Letre..

Halp mi..Im lortiingg..

......

Hey..umm..this is the army of bugs tat chewed her off..

So you wont be able to hear frm her from today..

Anyone trying to call the pollice..

We'll find YOU..

And chew YOU OFF!!

....

.......

....

......

Secret

2008-05-16T00:43:00.000+08:00

A question shot rite thru me in one nite...

A question I longed for many years ago,

A question with no doubt I'll answer with all my heart...

A question I never ever see it coming..

A question...

An answer tat makes someone happy,

An answer tat broke ones heart...

An answer tat I'm scared to give...

An answer so hard to live with (for the next few years)

An answer...

Well, I'm not gonna tell you wat happenned...

It's a secret tat we both share...

^^A secret^^

May 13..A day to remember..

2008-05-14T13:50:00.000+08:00

It's my lil bro' bday!! How can I ever forget?

And oso the 1st time ever I hanged out with Dixon..

He drove me..How nice and sweet of him..

We went mall hopping~

The curve for breakfast, Cineleisure for movie,

Bangsar Village for tea time, and Midvalley to see toys..

So many places and so lil time...

And thus...here comes the bday boy!!

We celebrated his bday in Tony Roma's..

And to our surprise, the ppl working there actually prepared a cake for him..How COOL!!

Back home..We decided to pay the Game of Life..

Which i bough in toys'r'us earlier few days ago..Which costs me RM125.00

Everyone's having fun..So the money's worthwhile to be spent!!

And I also end up being the target where everyone took my money..(cuz i was rich) and now..HAIHSS..And lost the game 3 times in a row..

Bought the most expensive house and end up not winning..How great..No children oso..walaueh!!

As u can see the winner parks her car in top of the roof of an old folks home and having twins in her car..makes her the ulmate winner...

not to say tat my bro and Jac's the top 2 winner..Having all the 10O,0oO in their hands!!

Another great day another great adventure...Brought to u by..

!!Me the Punk Chic!!

Trip to Macau~ Version 1.1 (hehe)

2008-05-14T12:51:00.000+08:00

Well, I hope those who came visit my blog enjoyed the sceneries which i brought bak frm Macau..^o^ This version contains the following..

A request frm Mr Dixon for his beloved shoe
My recent face bak frm Macau (hahha)
Night sceneries..More and more... o.o
Posers in Wynn Hotel
Last day in Macau at the airport!!

I went for a hair extension in Macau's shopping centre..at 1st i din wanna do it..but the salesgirls pushed me to their seat and start doing it for me..(Good move for those who wanna become salesgirls)..So this is the outcome..i wonder whether i looked alrite though..my 1st long hair ever!!

This is Dix'x shoe..Finally he bought it, at 1st his parents din wanna buy..but..well, in the end he got it for a really cheap price..i think RM200+ oni..lol Presenting>>> The Adidas 3.0 Basketball Shoe.. is it?! Haha..

This is the night scenery frm the other side of the island of Macau..Pretty nice huh?

We arrived at the Wynn Hotel..And a few memories to be taken of befre we came bak to Msia..

Dixon's mom and dad...Oww...so sweet... ^o^

Me and Dixon's turn to take pics.. LOL!!

His mom and him~and me...Awkward~~ O.O

The children who came..and become the posers..HAHAH

Nice chandelier tat they've placed in the entrance..

Trying to get a shot of her jumping in the mid air..as u can see..we failed..^^

Last day..In the airport..

Guys playing games and others shopping in the airport..

ummm...except for Gil..He's exhausted since the last nite we (me and my sis) have a Chinese series marathon using his LAPTOP!! Poor guy..Have to suffer with us..

So this is it..The Trip in Macau..

Hope ya like it..

Holiday in Macau~ version 01

2008-05-08T14:01:00.000+08:00

Hey... I'm so sorry I din update my blog for some times (AGAIN!)...well, until now I found no interresting news or things to share bout in my blog..till this came up ^^ hehe...As u all know i went to Macau for hols trip...Went wit my family, Uncle Chris, Uncle Allan (Dix's family)..and some of my uncles frm my dad's side...It's really fun, and I'd love to share this trip in my blog...Enjoy^^

Flying through the neverending sky... This is how it looks like when u're flying in the late afternoon in AirAsia plane...

Below is the latest and largest hotel in Macau..The Venetian...As u can see it's inspired by Romanian outwad design in the buildings..(Why am I typing as though I'm writing a report??!~) Well, I din stayed in there cuz the cost is like a BOOM..Well, I'm not a princess either so there's no point of me staying in such great hotel..

Instead..I stayed in a hotel named New Century Hotel...And..well, they've actually placed a few Greek god and goddess statue in the entrance...I din took much of their pics...but as long as i know..this shud be Hercules' dad..ZEUS!! god of thunder (clap clap)

Miss my face?AHAHA..lol jk nia..well taking some pic before I lose myself in the beauty of Macau~

This is the Night View frm the far side of Macau...another island i guess...And this fountain like building is really cool in it's design...(as u can see..there's none in malaysia's building tat looks like this one)

This is how it looks like when i'm underneath it in the afternoon...And this is what they've placed in the entrance..Grand and classy...compared to..the hotel I stayed in.. O.O

In front of the receptionist's desk...Like sparkling stars..Falling down from above...

There's more coming right up...But before I can post the pic and stuff, I'd like to say a big thanks for tose who dropped by in my blog once in a while to keep my blog alive!! Love ya guys!!

Fully Alive

2008-04-15T11:38:00.000+08:00

Telling Layla's story spoken

Bout how all her bones are broken

Hammers fall on all the pieces

Two months in the cover creases

Here she stands today

In her billion shiny ways

Fully alive

More than most

Ready to smile and love life

Fully alive

Now she knows how to believe in futures

All my complaints shrink to nothing

I'm ashamed of all my somethings

She's glad for one day of comfort

Only because she has suffered

Here she stands today
In her billion shiny ways

Fully alive

More than most

Ready to smile and love life

Fully alive

Now she knows how to believe in futures

Unspoken words that describe my feelings.

I feel more alive as I read the lyrics,

Pressing on with what I've believed,

Showed no mercy to those who shunned me.

Review From the Switchfoot Live Concert

2008-04-09T12:56:00.000+08:00

Oh YEA~~

As you can see..Jac Tan (my lil sista), Tammy and I are going to the concert~ (^~^)

Too happy to even express my own feelings..Btw it's my 1st concert tat I ever went to!!

The date befalls on my dear Darling's celebration b-day party~oh man!! How can I deal with it?! His B-day is on the 7th of feb so~ no worries..I'll celebrate with him personally..(^o^) muacks!! More pics to stunned ya peeps off!!

LOOK AT THE LINES!!!!

JONATHAN FOREMAN THE CUTE HUNK!!

Did I mention his bro's cute too?? Bassist!!

*~The whole band~*

Let's sum up...The whole event's a blast and not to mention I've got their band signature!! And that's the bonus!!

P/S...They wrote great songs!

Random Subjects

2008-04-09T12:31:00.000+08:00

Ahaha...I AM DEFINITELY GOING OUT OF MY MIND!!

Well, what i gotta say is what I wanted t say all along..SORRY!!!

1. For not updating blog for like...YEARS??? MONTHS??!!!

2. For rejecting some friends of mine from going out with THEM!!! (hmm..u know who u are)

3. For uh..staying at home play MAPLE instead of BLOGGING!!! (dam..i know some of u gonna kill me when u all find out..) but well, u've already did..ZZZ

Oh well, I have nothing much to update except for my life and future..For those who's interested~

Ehehe...I have chosen my path of which way I wanted to go in my life~ Well, maybe I liked to have draw out my passion..But I've got too many things happenning at once.. And now I wanted to become a dance teacher..HOW ABOUT TAT?? In fact, my dance principal have already arranged a group of students for me to teach..

Plans...And Dreams are unfolding it's petals just within my reach..

And uh, those who's interested to have a dance class..pls pls pls...Register at Taipan Dance World..Not for advertising services..But me to hve 200 hrs of teaching (then oni i can sit for the teacher's exam next year june)... BTW, they're opening a branch in Kota Damansara...I've heard tat they're putting there to teach (since it's just a few km away frm my house)

And uh, I've come quite a long journey cuz from moving my house to getting into dance career..But as for my friends..REJOICE WITH ME!! For at least I've made up my mind..How bout you?

P/S..I've just recovered from high fever yesterday..and so...today~~ CONTINUE DANCE~~~

So Sorry peeps

2008-01-12T01:50:00.000+08:00

Hey, just wanna apologise for the late update and stuffs...Cuz I've been shifting houses and well, my new house doesn't have the online system thingy and there's no wireless around this area..sooooo...Well..sorry alrite??

Moving and shifting houses are great work. I've got to assemble my own bed and oso my table and most of the things in my room. ^^ It was quite fun actually...The tiring part is where i have to move all my belongings and my parent's belongings to ht new house and and.....and.....haihz.. >.< Lotsa things to tell ya guys..not much time though..

How i got to update this time? Well, my dad kinda asked and registered for the streamyx ler... So now i got to use the comp and the bad thing is there's still no wireless..Meaning i still have to fight over the comp with my siblings to gain my position to update my blog...^^

Well, Happy New Year to ya peeps..And oso really late merry chirstmas.. O.Oll

Cookies designs

2007-12-20T00:01:00.000+08:00

Lolx...Been really busy lately..well..

These are the pics tat i took when i'm helping out in the cooking process..Yea..i cut myself in the process...

This is one of my designs that i did to the gingerbread cookies...

Another few designs...

Hehe..some overall designs that i did with Mandy and Jac..

Peeps working hard here..

In the end, the cookies will be on the mini christmas trees...

Merry Xmas Y'all!!

Joy to the World~~

2007-12-17T14:21:00.000+08:00

Lols...Been wondering where I've been??

These pic will define why..and Oso..yea man..At least whatever i do i never forget to take a pic for the sake of my blog..least pics make the blog interesting..

Having caroling practices at the school..Came in the 1st time in many months and FOUND A DEAD COCKROACH on the floor...LOL

Yea..it's very disturbing at 1st..but the practice went well anyway..Git a solo part in WHITE CHRISTMAS again..hehe..but this time Mandy will do it with me..so it's kinda like a duet..

Me And Joelle..Having Great time Together.. Muax girl..Frens Forever..

Well, any bunch of pics coming soon..I have no time gotta gop help Auntie Lillian to cook catering food stuffs..And well another one about the Battle Of The Bands coming soon..took a few pic to post it here..maybe I'll do it later when i came bak..But for this time being...i Gotta CHAO PeEps..

Pimping My Phone!!

2007-12-13T17:11:00.000+08:00

well well..to those who knows I'd love to add Blingsss to my phone...And my frens are really fascinated by it..to see the way it shine in the light..

The other day, when I'm with Sook Chin. She asked me a favor to help her pimped up her phone. Since she got a new phone (everybody's been getting a new phone anyways) so, my hands are like itching its way off to bling up her phone..And every single time i saw someone's brand new phone..

Somehow, I said somehow, my desire of pimping up their phone is ssooo....well, big..All i said to them is..

You Bring The Materials (blings) And I'll Do It For Ya..

It's kinda like my hobby ya noe...gotta check out a few websites bout the BLINGSS!! so cool.. They have like this official site for pimping accessories like Laptop!! Phones!! And sometimes even..CAR Keys!??!! wat the?? weird..but it's true..go visit this site if u're a bling fan..
http://www.myblingring.com

cool site i can say... And how's sook chin's phone? I shall reveal it..

TADA!! Thank u Thank U...

SO COOL!! Let's see the bak of the phone..

Well, all i can say is tat...If you're willing enuf..I'll do it for u..since i Love to pimp things up..ahaah...XD

Emotions Can Strike You Any Moment

2007-12-13T03:02:00.000+08:00

It's really funny to know that emotions are the hardest thing to overcome throughout one's life..

Is it necessary to overcome it?

Somehow I think it's useless... To feel sad for no reason, to be EMO to get attentions.. I wonder why people do these kinda stuffs, I did it..But for no clear reasons why i did it too.. Funny to find that adults did it too..I though they Are mature..But seems like they're not, when it comes to controling your own emotions..

Footsteps...Are like prints or even scars on ones life..The pathways where they choose to walk..will leave a trail there..

I wonder anyone saw my footsteps in my life?

Maybe a few..but not all...

Is my footsteps in my life a deep print on your life? The places where i walked on..On your life..did i leave a trail there? Will you remember me for who I am?

What will happen if I just die one day?

Well, God gave me a vision..He showed me..How it's like to just die..and without any notice..to just leave earth and everyone behind..

He showed me, everyone..every single one of my frens, maybe, enemies..if i have one.. each of them appeared in my funeral..well, not a happy face..BUT sad face.. I've already said..when i die..i WANT everyone to be happy..But why? Everyone's sad? Why?

Later, He showed me...The ones I left a deep trail in their lives..My close frens..They liked to talk bout me when I'm with them..but..everytime when they mentioned me..TEARS started to roll down their faces..

And He showed me, those people which I din leave a deep trail.. Well..sad to say..they carried on with their lives without me...and soon..they forgot who i really am..

I don't wanna die..I haven't even say how much I'd love you..I din even say how much I'd love to waste my time with you..I haven't even say anything yet..Jesus, don't take me yet...I love my frens, i'd love to waste time with them..I'd love to..I'd love those times that we've spent together..My love..My family..My dear dear friends...

Many times..these 3 words are being used..even abused..But now..from the bottom of my heart..honestly, sincerely I'd just like to say..I Love You..every single one of you that appeared in my life..

So sorry peeps...

2007-12-12T23:12:00.000+08:00

Hey hey...Recently there's a lot of things going on..i MEAN REALLY LOTSA THINGS..

1st..My comp that I always used to blog and oso play facebook..Broke down..Cause of some trojan virus or some internet attacking attempt..Making the comp unusable..

2nd..I'm not at home cause Aunty Lillian asked me out to help her deliver banners to Seremban..And oso Sook Chin came with me too..

3rd..I have no one to help me fix the comp.. >.<>

So Sorry that i cant get online though..Trying hard to..but the DSL kept on blinking..Thus, making the internet unusable..

How I can blog this?? Well..before i left to yum cha with my girls..i left it ( the modem ) on and when i came bak..which is now..this time.. It worked!! God, why am i so stupid and didn't try it this way when my siblingsnot around..Now they're going to snatch the comp away from me...NNOOOO~~ but it's good to share anyways...SHARING IS CARING ( God says) i mite as well obey Him..lol.. XD

I found out this cool music video..a remake of Bring Me To Life by Evanescence..Enjoy it ya??

Go there now!

Heroes Season 2 Finale Is Out!!

2007-12-05T14:59:00.000+08:00

OMG OMG OMG!!! A great news for all the Heroes Fans...The FINALE IS OUT!!!

Well, while going thru this fanatic moment I would like to share that my parents (both my mom and dad) are away to China for some missionary church thingy, in which they'll return in 12 dec..Just in time for Christmas.

And I've also receive a call from Uncle Kevin that Aunty Lillian will have a cupcake class for tomorrow.I wonder if i shud join..hmm..Well, if i can give that out as a Christmas present it'll be great. But I've also prepared some Xmas gifts myself..Lol..I'm really looking forward to the caroling practice.

And most excitingly to say. Yesterday, after dance class me and some group of frens went to watch Enchanted. A very good show indeed.
I've actually watched it twice..once with Josh and another one with them (my frens) Well..I can say there are a few cool movies coming out soon..example my watch list are..

Narnia:Prince Caspian
National Treasure 2: The Book of Secrets
I Am Legend (played by Will Smith)
Spiderwick Chronicles (from Nickelodeon production)
Water Horse (from Narnia producers)
10,000 BC..(looks interesting something like the ancient stone age thingy)
Meet The Spartans (this will be the comedy of the year)
Iron Man (the Marvel superheroes)
Get Smart (another similar movie related to Johnny Blues?? The James Bond in Mr Bean Version)
AVP!!!! ( a must watch for those Alien and Predator fans!!)

Well, all these movies are very worth looking forward to..So..I'll be waiting to even watch with my frens..

Have a Nice Holidays!!

My Life Is Interesting~~

2007-12-03T17:18:00.000+08:00

Haven't I told anyone of u tat the other day, Mich Ooi, Tracy,and Mandy came over to my house? AHA! I just realized i din post this up though..LOLX

Wat actually happened is all of them decided to come my house (ou yea, Josh Long came over too ^^) to deco their name tags for the upcoming camp (THE GY CAMP 2007!!) Too bad, I'm not going..Hope ya guys will have fun there okie?

In around noon, my sis and I reached Mandy's house, decided to go MYDIN to get some tools and stuffs to bring it back to my house.But, Mich din know the plan is to come my house and do it, so in the end she had to call her mom (I think) to tell her not to fetch her frm Mandy's house..But all thanks to her that in the inend she got to go to my house and helped out!!

Great..

When they finished shopping..And reached my house..The 1st things is the big big obstacle they have to go thru..MY.....(tada) DOG... Sook Chin's afraid of my dog, Mandy too! (but not as much as Sook Chin) But all of them managed to get off with it and went straight to my room...

The 1st thought is..OH NO!! THEY ARE SO GOING TO MESS UP MY ROOM!!
2nd is...I thought they're going do it in the computer area..the upper living room (i called it)
3rd...HOW COME NOONE TELLS ME THAT THEY'RE GOING TO USE MY ROOM...
4TH..JACLYN TANNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!

LOL..

It's not as bad as i thought i would be..BUT STILL!! They helped out in cleaning..so That very very Good...ahahaa...They got to taste my pie ^^ and my cooking...MY GRAVY RICE..hope they liked it though...HEHE..

Well...that's how my day were like..Cooking them meals, and oso, helping my sis designing some name tags all..I've got tosay..Mandy's nametag is really creative, in my own opinion..So, this is the wrap up for this post...Happy Holis y'all..

To those who tasted my food..Pls give some comments to the Cbox?? Thanks a lot!! Love ya gurls..muaxx

It Is Raining!!

2007-11-30T02:03:00.000+08:00

A Rainy Day, An Adventurous Deed

2007-11-30T01:36:00.000+08:00

Hehe...today was very tiring day for me. Why? Cuz i've tried bake a pie, cook my own supper..Basically, i din do so much kitchen work in a day b4. Usually was just one dish (and tat's enough) So, to day was really fun and tiring for me (especially for me when i need to clean up all the dishes).

Baking was the fun part until I tried to do homemade whipped cream~~ Lolx.. never worked out. I tried putting butter and sugar and milk in it and whipped it out..well, not quite the correct way, i guess. it din make it so I have it all threw out..Next, I loaded the bowl with just milk and egg white and sugar..(it din work out any way) TO THE GARBAGE BIN IT GOES!! haha..Talking bout wasting food..This apprentice (which is me) are wasting more food than anyone else in a day (I can say)..

Oh yes..the pie, it came out to be what i expected. It's my 1st time baking on my own anyway, ^^ the pie (tasted by my whole family) was rated a good blueberry butter pie for a 1stimer like me.. ^^ Very good indeed. I'll try upload the image of the pie later tomorrow..(though it's really ugly, the taste was awesome for me)..

The rest of the day it's rainy..minor thunderstorm around my area. The cool breeze during the strom was pretty much, I can say, a natural air conditioning..Which is my best laid bak days in the holis..I wonder what will happen during the Xmas season?? Any plans going around anywhere? Well, according to my youth, my pastor agreed for the group to carol in PYRAMID!! YAY!! Really looking forward to that day. Kish is coming bak, can't wait to see him. And lotsa plans going around in December!! And next year too!!

HAPPY HOLIDAYS Y'ALL~~

Two movies in a row~~ WHAT?!!

2007-11-29T01:17:00.000+08:00

This afternoon, I went out with Josh Long..Guess who i saw?? No..it's not who u think i saw..well, not big surprise, i saw Boon Tiong and Ivy in the mall (1 utama)..Went to the Richard Harris Cafe to eat (which is my fav cafe) ate LAMB CANTERBURY~~not so big deal huh? lolx..

The fun thing was..that we hang out and then again..I saw Shaun (not Sean Kingston, dun worry, it's Shaun Xavier) and his partner..Leon.. Only thing i can really say is the world is seriously very puny small tiny weeny kecil siao sai.. Lolx ^o^

Well, as u can see, a lot of nice cool movies are popping out of nowhere lately (it has always been like this ever since every year dec) So, i decided to watch a few of it in a day..noting tat my dad wouldn't allow me to go out most of the time.. And finally, after a few minutes (no, long time waiting) for me to decide which movie to watch..He (Josh) getting impatient..and asked me to stop hesitating which movie..(Wanna know why?) Around the cinema area, there's three small tvs hanging onto the pillar. Thus, showing all the previews of ALL the movies (which, I can say, is very exciting to watch ALL of them) By the minute it's his turn to buy the tickets..and there goes my decision!!!

1st movie..Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium
A warm hearted movie which always lets u think of all the games which u've played when u were young..Very touching indeed..

2nd movie..Beowulf
Despite of the fact that i was supposed to watch Enchanted, I end up watching this show instead which is like 9:00pm ++. Because Enchanted's next show was like 11:00 pm ++. The show, for me, was terifying at 1st (cuz of the way they potray a troll) very very ugly~ And i still never understand why a troll so ugly was given birth by such a beautiful mother..one thing i can really say is..THE SHOW IS 18++ LOTSA SEXUAL PHYSICAL THINGY AND SOME SCENES ARE VERY VERY VIOLENT..Not for the weak hearted ppls..

I wanna complain the Msian way of rating a movie is really..well..weird (this is so much that i can say..) A movie contain so much of the sexual content and violent scenes are only PG13 ??!! yeaps u can say tat again..In astro (some tv programme distributor), a movie like, Zoom? or any movie which contain less violence and sexual material..was rated 18++ ??!! lolx.. What can i say? To be in a position of a teenager..living in a way of filtering whatever things u see, heard or touch..Is very important. Since it affects the mentality when u're growing..Well, all i can say is, mix with the ppl who brings positive influence..Not negative..

That's it for the teaching of the day, too much flavour spoils the meal rite? So, my day was fun and cool. Got to hang out at least, watched 2 movies, had dinner at my fav cafe..What more can i desire? All thanks to God..He made it possible..He knows I'm really bored at home (holidays!!!) and ther it was the outing of the year i can say.. ^^

Hmm..to Dix..

2007-11-28T13:21:00.000+08:00

Hey..I'm really sorry i cant go out with u today okie??My parents oso dunno why dun let me out with u..next time maybe bring ur frens along..Cuz they're really fussy bout me and u alone thingy.. O.o dun ask me why like this..(I have no idea at all) So..this time i owe u a movie..Rite..u plan when and pls tell me, it's a whole bunch of us..not just me and you...

I'll never understand why they dun let..They haven't gotten over my last break up yet..so~~ well..maybe go out next time lar okie?? ^^

I dedicate this video to you lor..one of my fav dance vids...so forgive me ya...

Bout Yesterday...

2007-11-28T13:09:00.000+08:00

Go there now!

Something for ya guys to enjoy while looking at my site..^^ 18++ May contain some violent scenes that some children might not be able to take.. Overall, laugh as we go along the video..

lol...bout something yeaterday?? i wonder what happenned...

Sook Chin's bday surprise came to be a success..And she din know there's be so many ppl there at Kenny Roger's..lolx XD so the funny...the moment she saw the crowd..her eyes are like this.. O.O AHAHA..Btw, happy 20th bday!! and oso thx to my sis, JAC, the surprise turns to be success..and oso the ppl who came..thannk youssss...

The People Who Came:

Kevin Wong
Alan Ng
Wai Hon
Eunice
Yaw
Bernice
Josh J.
Josh Long
Gilbert
Jac tan
Jacq Lim
Mich Ooi
Justin Ooi
Mandy
Thomaz
Me
MOST OF ALL, GOD!!!

And after the dinner together..Josh Long brought her to Asia Cafe's CC!! and there...she kena whacked in the cs kau kau lor!! But well, i'm glad she enjoyed the game and oso the dinner..^^

PS: I'm really sry for not taking any pictures for ya guys to see...

Lil Somethin' For Ya.

2007-11-26T22:07:00.000+08:00

This is the COOLEST video i've ever watched in YouTube.

Hope ya guys enjoyed it..

My 1st time to do some blogging..Just bear with me for a while..while i learn to type some interesting stuffs into this page.

Dunno where to start actually.So i just pasted some videos and pics (for entertainment)..By the way, i'm really quite happy bout the dance team J.U.M.P., cuz it has become the National Dance Team for Msia!! Yay..and also.. tomorrow is Sook Chin's birthday...i did some planning thing for her..Hope to surprise her kau kau..lolx XD

On the other side of Subang..Josh, Darren and Harvey planned to wake her up in the morning (really early!! it's 6am!!) to surprise her to her doorstep..Alex's (her bro) gonna open the door for the guys to surprise her..The birthday girl who's turning 20 tomorrow, will be filmed on cam while the guys did the stuffs. Since she always slept till late in the noon.. This will be her punishment..sleepy eyes to let the whole world looking at her..lol

Warning to Sook Chin: beware of ur sleepiness..

Tips: get up early to receive ur surprise..

Finally...Another Blog...

2007-11-26T21:20:00.000+08:00

I'm so sorry that i have to come up another blog..The last one (in Friendster) wasn't really interesting and so, I've created another one. LOLX..