Darn it..!!

My comp is working, but not my internet..Having problems to connect till I nid to use the dial up style. Old skool sia~

Life's pretty eventful this time,
Got performances and shows everywhere..
Till I oso blurr blurr. O.o

And then, I know why I've been enoing the few days liao. It's an experiment for myself to know. Cuz my *ahem* is near and I'll get mood swings. Practically not swings just my mood will be down In The FREAKING VALLEY!!! So down till I got suicidal thoughts, Oh man!

And thus I know, when *ahem* is near. just be happy. *Knocks herself* Reminder.... >.<

And my day sucked....

Woke up realising there's nothing left of me.
The traces I've been looking for is all gone.
And most importantly,
I've completely lost self control.

The very moment I stand here in the midst of this busy world, I thought,"Wouldn't it be a nice thing if I just fade away...Like how I used to?"

My life flashes images of beauty and awe as I decide to fly with the wind. Not caring what the world will think of me. It's just me...

The weight of the world is heavy upon my weak shoulders. And I'll always know, You're always there to carry me. Be ready to pick me up as I fall. Crying as I beg of You to have mercy upon my wrongdoings. I saw You sitting there, bright and pure as You should be. And then...

Reality

It hit me so hard, and I have no place to hide. I have nothing to make You happy. I'm just noone... But You choose to die for a nobody like me. Why? Lying naked on the floor, You came carrying the best linen in the world to cover me. I choked, "Why are You doing this?"

Because I Love You

And soon I know the hit from reality, is to bring me back to Your side forever. Not leaving anymore.

Tell you what..I don't know what u've said..But Whatever U've said is still hurting..

Know why? I saw something I shudn't seen... I sometimes really wish u din say those words at all. But U alone said it...Wat words? U shud know it by urself....

Alrites..Since I've got some time in hand I'll freaking update my blog.


Life's good.The End.

Nah..It wasn't. Just broke up with my current bf, going thru some heartaches. I'm stupid! That's all I realized. Not only that, I'm addicted to Night World Series, which describes love story in a very different way. While I don't have anyone to love..WRONG AGAIN! I have my friends, and parents and whoever that's nice to me. I can love them. Yea I could and I would.

The latest story I've finished yesterday night was the love between Galen and Keller. I mean Keller's character and personality attracts me so much and I feel like I wanna be like her. She loves Galen, but there's an important mission awaiting her to complete it. SO..She hides all her feelings and yet be caring enough to care for others. Until she completed what needs to be done THEN..POOF..She and the guy was together forever. I mean, it's reeallly cool to even think like that. Complete my life's goals. Then tot bout love stuff..

I'll always know I'm not alone. Either I have God with me all the time, and friends who are super duper caring. Blessed I guess...

Mood: Not Up Not Down, Just In Between

And uh..Yea this coming Friday which is the 8th of May. I'll be performing again together with the rest in Taylor's College. They have this event called the Taylor's Got Talent thingy.. Well, I wish all the contestants all the best!!

BTW, I have a really big biG BIG Wanted LIST!

1st. Calvin and Hobbes Comics!! (They're so funny together)
2nd. Night World Last Series- Strange Fate (Can't wait to see what happens next)
3rd. The Vampire Diaries- The Return: Nightfall (Didn't know the author will come up this one)

And the list goes on and on. (not hinting anything)

Ah..As you can see, if I'm not dancing or watching dance videos. I'll be reading tons of books. Which I'm glad I did, rather than hunting new bfs..Gosh, that scared me a lil. Yeap I'm like tat..Supposedly to move on to my next target..But it has to stop.