Chapter 5: The Minute

You won't find me there, my angel...

My dance crew (I mean our crew) has officially named Last Minute. From the Awakening to Last Minute.

Last minute performances, last minute projects, last minute choreography!! Great, I realised that name meant a lot to us (the dance crew) cuz we like to do things last minute. XD LoL...

Wooo..Hanged out with my usual gang (Jacq, the keys and Amanda). Din get to count down cuz they decided to watch movie. And forgot the movie's at 11.55pm!!! I can' believe we actually forgot our main plan. Went to TGI.F (still reminds me of you) Had Jack Daniel's Steak and oso Dragonfire Chicken. It's nice..I stuffed myself!! Hahaha...It's fun too...Having fun camwhoring in TGI.F while the waiters are like staring at us. Who cares anyway? Later we went to the movie (Zohan) and then went to check out Bar Celona. The Dj spun techno songs which doesn't prompt me to dance. I never liked techno~ I was thinking to get inspiration (choreography) from there. But in the end, we cant get to go in. Sook Chin asked her fren to bring us in. But he can't manage to..(Cuz we planned to go in and then chao) So we feel bad, imagine trying so hard to get ur frens to go in to the club but in the end they just stay there for like 3 mins?! Gosh..Tat'll be very disturbing, I mean, I do feel bad for it. So in the end oso din go in ler~

Now blogging in Jacq's hse, while others are relaxing in her room. Mandy reading novel, not to mention Jac T oso. Sook Chin onlining using Jacq's comp. Jacq chatting with the rest of us. And Amanda sleeping. Hahah...Funny~ I love my frens they're so cool, I mean, not only in dancing..But our friendship lasts for about 6+ years...Ah well...I love my life~

XOXO for those who walked by my side throughout my life...

Chapter 4: The Struggle

In one day, you can wake up to think whether you're living the nightmare or not. Since I'm broken, why not broke myself into more pieces? When noone will ever bother to put you back again. Why feel down when one small matter trips you and let you fall along the road?

The struggle

What puts you through troubles after troubles and problems after problems..Sometimes you'll think you'll can't get over it. It's true, if that is what you told yourself.

Let's talk bout my life before I end up talking bout something that winds up completely different to what I'm about to share. LOL. Alright, life has been merciful to me ever since he's gone. And to that I would like to thank God for it. Well, you all know what I'm planning to do ever since when I was like..15, 16?? Yeah, back to the dance topic again.

Today, Puteri (one of the girls in my dance class) asks my groupie (the Awakening) to perform for her club's event..I'm not sure what I'll need. Most of it it's just mix dance, just like the ones I did before...I guess..Haha.. Kinda disappointed at myself cuz my mind's completely worked up for teaching dances and stuff..Oh boy!! 1st is because I'm still lingering in the past. 2nd is Im really stressed up for the teaching thingy!! There's like a few classes going on now. Had to keep track for all of them.

The performance is at Puteri's school. Seafield Usj 2. Great...Another secondary school.. Haha..(swt..) Oh well, there's nothing much to do anyways so yea.. Gotta come up with dance steps and stuff..Another struggle there.

Oh! Did I mention tat I pickeed up a tortoise on my way home? It crawled out to the main road... Being the animal-lover (except roaches!) I just stopped my car to pick it up. Place it in my home. Kinda funny though, it knew it was me who's gonna feed it so it just stared at me (with those watery round eyes) Great..I'll never resists these eyes. (in the end I fed it spring onion) I remembered once there's this kitten curled up like a ball in front of a shop..I just went and pick it up again. I mean, come on Lydia. Leave it alone already!! Well, I can't...So I at least placed it in a box and gave it to one of the boss of the restaurant who promised to take cae of the kitten. Which is good. It doesn't really looked like a stray cat. I mean I'll never mind all these little things I can do for it. So I'll just stop babbling bout it.

Life's pretty easy on me. Still hard on the edges. I'm still learning to take it.

PS: Japanese class is killing me. (I have to learn how to write and read and talk) Basically..I'm gone!! Exam's on the ju-gatsu sanju ichi nichi. Which means simply, Oct 30. Dead!

Chapter 3: The Change

U will see me in another perspective that u never see me before. This dark side has its own candy. When everyone can dance, I'll dance better. In a way of movement tat ur eyes havent conceive it before. A way so sure I can handle myself, a way so hard I can blow u off.

Style is what make me this way. BITE THE DUST..

Dancing with my girls, project coming along well. And we'll step on the world, where u'll see us isolate ourself with different dance. U will see the Awakening...Next performance coming soon on mid of Oct..

Chapter 2: The Great Escape


Times has passed, I wonder how many days I've been escaping my blog. Not willing to touch it, I've escaped myself into a world of my own fantasy. Sook Chin (practically Jacq) suggested me to read Twilight Trilogy, a story involving a young girl who has fallen in love with a vampire. LOL! But the actions inside are fantastic, I mean I can practically imagine how the director's gonna shoot the movie. It's coming out on 12th of Dec 08.

Throw it away, forget yesterday... I could make myself a great escape, rite now. I haven't been hanging out with the girls. Thus, my life is like plain water, without any flavour in it. Locking myself in the room, and so I'm sick.

Sore throat and blocked noses for past few days. I've even cancelled my sunday class cuz i dun wan my children to get it frm me. Haihzzzz....There's a lot of things I wouldn't wanna do now. Like BLOGGING!! But Mandy asked me to so..yea. I've obeyed her word. (Opps..Did I mention Dix asked too?) Oh my, well, people has been asking me to blog la okie? So here I am..Giving my best..

There'll be no pics, I'm too lazy to grab my cam. Just really rotting myself here. Oh! Sat I have a soccer demo together with Eunice. Well, cause we're the only girls, the other guys from other schools are like howling wolves waiting to pounce on us. HAhaha... It's funny for them to act tat way, I'm flattered. LOL. I bet they never know there are girls who plays soccer. After the demo me and Nice hanged out in Ikea. Of all places, and all shopping malls, I've enjoyed the very moment of it. No haunting memories of him. Which is good, I dun wanna rememeber anything.

I've driven so fast when I'm alone, wishing I'll get an accident and wake up having amnesia. I dun like to remember things I dun wanna remember. But still, it comes so near to me every single time, slipping pass me like a ghost of haunting memories. I hope I'll get memory loss soon, this will be the greatest escape for me.

BTW, I'm not emo-ing. Just feeling down and wanna die cuz of this DAM DAM DAM flu...Shit..I wanna kill myself!! Someone strangle me..

Chapter 1: The Awakening

It happened and it didn't fade away. The intense feeling I had for the past few months left me wondered, "Have I actually been in it?" It came and went away...just like a dream. I have been captured by the wonders of his eyes. So beautiful and yet; so dangerous.

Saturday, 9 August 2008.
Forced myself awake, failing to realise I'm late for Dance Teacher's Meeting.

Something inside urged me to go on without him. For I know, he'll never care for me as much as before. So I sat down, on my beloved sister's bed. New Moon by Stephenie Meyer, the climax came when I slowly and carefully relive the history (or maybe, the story) in my mind. Constantly felt the heart break as I read how Edward spoke to Bella, telling her that he's leaving. And it'll be like as if I'd never existed. Those were the last words he spoke to Bella. Touched, teared and reacted the same way like how she's reacting.

But the end is the starting of something new. Something I'll never see it coming, the awakening of my desire and dream which I left hidden long time ago. A dream which goes forth and there's no turning back. A memory I will left behind, you can take everything. Not my dream.