Chapter 4: The Struggle

In one day, you can wake up to think whether you're living the nightmare or not. Since I'm broken, why not broke myself into more pieces? When noone will ever bother to put you back again. Why feel down when one small matter trips you and let you fall along the road?

The struggle

What puts you through troubles after troubles and problems after problems..Sometimes you'll think you'll can't get over it. It's true, if that is what you told yourself.

Let's talk bout my life before I end up talking bout something that winds up completely different to what I'm about to share. LOL. Alright, life has been merciful to me ever since he's gone. And to that I would like to thank God for it. Well, you all know what I'm planning to do ever since when I was like..15, 16?? Yeah, back to the dance topic again.

Today, Puteri (one of the girls in my dance class) asks my groupie (the Awakening) to perform for her club's event..I'm not sure what I'll need. Most of it it's just mix dance, just like the ones I did before...I guess..Haha.. Kinda disappointed at myself cuz my mind's completely worked up for teaching dances and stuff..Oh boy!! 1st is because I'm still lingering in the past. 2nd is Im really stressed up for the teaching thingy!! There's like a few classes going on now. Had to keep track for all of them.

The performance is at Puteri's school. Seafield Usj 2. Great...Another secondary school.. Haha..(swt..) Oh well, there's nothing much to do anyways so yea.. Gotta come up with dance steps and stuff..Another struggle there.

Oh! Did I mention tat I pickeed up a tortoise on my way home? It crawled out to the main road... Being the animal-lover (except roaches!) I just stopped my car to pick it up. Place it in my home. Kinda funny though, it knew it was me who's gonna feed it so it just stared at me (with those watery round eyes) Great..I'll never resists these eyes. (in the end I fed it spring onion) I remembered once there's this kitten curled up like a ball in front of a shop..I just went and pick it up again. I mean, come on Lydia. Leave it alone already!! Well, I can't...So I at least placed it in a box and gave it to one of the boss of the restaurant who promised to take cae of the kitten. Which is good. It doesn't really looked like a stray cat. I mean I'll never mind all these little things I can do for it. So I'll just stop babbling bout it.

Life's pretty easy on me. Still hard on the edges. I'm still learning to take it.

PS: Japanese class is killing me. (I have to learn how to write and read and talk) Basically..I'm gone!! Exam's on the ju-gatsu sanju ichi nichi. Which means simply, Oct 30. Dead!