Okay...Officially I'm half doomed..

1st.. I'm really down-to-the-core anxious of my new job coming this sat.
2nd.. I have no idea what am I doing at this time (except for the dance
part)..
3rd.. I'm freaking myself out for no reason...at all.

Well, I'd like to apologise to Jac (ma lil sis) cuz..I threw my temper at her for some private reason. I don't like mentioning my reasons why I'm angry, maybe cuz it's somehow inapropriate. Or simply I just like to keep things to myself now.

I'm extremely glad that the Tuesday performance came out nearly perfect (I'd like to say that myself) Although I did (not to mention others did) some mistakes. As long as I'm offering all the praises..seriously ALL THE PRAISES AND GLORY to Him. The ultimate Guy that I'm trying hard to please most of the time. I know I'm not perfect, and by His grace I'm still standing tall today. And thank Jesus that God actually lent His Hand to help me out this few weeks.

I thoroughly grateful..Of what's happening in my life. As though the dream that I dreamt of every night coming true right before my eyes. It's so surreal..Yet it's so life..

Oh right..I suppose that I need to upload my photos oof my recent doings. FYI, my cam has gone out of battery.. And I'll recharge it soon enough (HOPEFULLY XD). I try to get the pictures posted.

And to others who'd like to drop by my blog every once in a while. I'd liek to say a big hank you for at least cring enough to know whetehr I'm still alive. hahhahaa, no joke. Ermm..Just telling you peeps that I'll start my work this sat (10am-5pm). Working 6 days a week and well, hopefully I can cope (which I don't think I can at all) Just pray with me, will ya? and If anyone's planning an outing anytime soon pls do tell me a week earlier. Usually after my work I'll go to UGDN to train my dance and stuffs. Yea..Busy all over again.

Any updates pls do tell me aight? I'd love to go shopping anytime soon. Right after my work or one of my holidays...XD Miss you peeps so much~

A busy life...

Day No. 7846290 - Yvanna's exhausted. Basically, she's excited also. What to say? When someone has found their dreams coming true slowly step by step, they're actually too passionate to even think that they're tired. If they are doing what they like most.

Ah shut up~

Well, my busy life has lead me to an extreme diet. Meaning I'm already loss my weight (sometimes I do wonder if it's a good thing, since ppl always say I'm meaty) I'm 55kg before I join UGDN. And it has been that way ever since. But now...I'm 49kg..A freaking 6kg loss, in a week!! That's a lot..Maybe it's the sweat. For example, imagine me sweat a bowl of sweat every single day. Hmm..Not elaborate enough. Imagine..People pouring water on me..

Oh yeah...Tat's a lot.. heheh..Really and seriously, I got witnesses. Cause a singlet for me is not enough to soak up my sweat everytime I train. Tat's really crazy man. That's my theory of why I lost weight so fast in a week.

Okay, let's talk bout more personal things, like...hmm..I wonder what. Not much going on in my relationship life ever since my emo period went off completely from my blog posts. Well, noone seems to have any interests in me anymore. Maybe I should post up like !SINGLE GIRL FOR SALE! poster or advertisement. I don't care much anyways.

If I do, I wonder how much I do costs...Suggestions anyone?

Another happy thing came across to me this week. Like my mom buying an IPod Classic 120GB Black Version for me!! HAHAHA... I mean, that's really helping my dance so far. Well, all I know to repay her is to make her proud of me of my dance and..etc etc.. The main thing is to do at least a shining thing from this dance...

Oh, before I forget, the main person who helped upload the songs inside. LIKE FREAKING 5k++ songs!! How on earth man~ Somemore helped me to put japanese speaking videos inside (how sweet of him) and oso LOCKING VIDEOS!!! So freaking nice man..haha...I dont want mention names. Cause you know it's you (I know U read my blog..So it's U!!) Thanks a lot and big big hug (if u nid it) ^^

Alrites..I'm performing in Seremban next Tues. Can't believe it again. This week it's fun and rough and everything in between. I hope you guys enjoy this as much as I do from typing all this funny nonsense. Next time then~

Wow~

I mean I can't believe my life's been working out for me so far... It's been areat journey. I've hurt myself and stand back up again. Let myself down, and yet I'm so satisfied with myself~

So many things have been happening lately. For example, I'm now learning dance from UGDN. And finally, seriously!! FINALLY, Joel let me perform with the rest!! FREAK!!!!!! I'm so happy that he even place me to perform with the rest of the crew. It's such an HONOR!!!!

oh..btw..I had an accident. HAHAH..of all things...I blame meself for being careless..Really careless..

OK!! So I don't talk bout unhappy things 1st... I just wanna celebrate my life..and ya..Dance is so fun..especially locking..^^

Ahaha...I realised my blog is so dead with my emotional problems. o.o

Today, I applied a part time job nea my hse. All by myself, a girl who's always afraid to even make the 1st move, and I did!!

I'm so proud of myself~

Got this feeling as though I can take on the world for there's nothing to lose anymore!!!

This is stupid..I mean for others they're completely oblivious bout the fact I always like to depend on other ppl to finish the job for me. But ths time Is So Completely Different!! So, I'm on to take on whatever the world has to throw at me, on me, around me..whatsoever.....


I feel so happy cuz mom bought me a lot of stuffs I need to dance!! A pair of new shoes!! jacket~ singlet and cap~~ Yay..I mean those are for the stylings..hehe..Cuz I'm fasionable on the other side of the world..Somehow..Somewhere.. I GET IT!! IM TOTALLY CRAPPING MY HEAD OFF!! ALL BECAUSE OF THIS ONE SMALL THING I DID AND FEEL PROUD OF..so simple..so dumb.. I know...For the 1st time..I truly know...so funny..useless..weird..naive..

Chapter 7: The Steps Taken

Sorrows come and go,
I realised when I do linger on it..

I get nothing.

But still my heart is still aching no matter how much I denied it.
Only songs can touch my heart. For instance, Steven Cravis' songs...
Ah~ How well played..

Soothing and smooth going~


Tomorrow's the day where I need to perform with Tom. And Sat is the day when I need to perform with the girls... My head is awfully filled with dances. (And yet, I still have time to think bout nonsense) Horrible, isn't it? The effects one leave on people. Busy with tons of dances, oh how I love Cheska's steps. Sexy, yet not dirttttyyyy!!! Nice move..

For once!! Heroes Season 3 came out. :3 So happy~ Hmm...Met Jac's fren (Kenneth) online..No more guys pls...I'm so scared of them already~ Heartbreakers!!! LoL Bias.... I love girls!! Blek!

Chapter 6: Pieces Intact

I can't believe I did it again..
This time is so much worse than I thought...
Oh well, I'm the one who said it anyway..
Who cares what happens next?
Dance..Oh no!!
Great opportunity to step it up...
Hurt again..Healed, and hurt and healed...
STRESSES!!!!!
I hate myself for beng stupid..
I won't be anymore...
Don't try to even think bout anything (This is for you)

Alrite, start to update my life again.
Recently, I found out even my dog have menstrual cycle. (quite dumb huh?) And also, I've attended the Mini Street Festival in UGDN. Quite an extraordinary experience to dance with the instructors from the Phillipines. Especially I'm called to perform..together with them. I don't wanna waste this chance to brush up my dance skills!! So I accepted...evem though I got lots of steps to catch up. I never did house dance before...I never knew there's a beatboxer at the age of 17 can did so good..I never knew what was called a cypher..I never knew there's lotsa cool breakers who dance extremely well in Malaysia...I never knew what was like to watch pppl battle each other face to face..

I experienced that in just one day...

I'm so glad that the workshop's over. It's been a long week and busy too. Not that busy, oh but well...Busy mentally, busy brushing up my dance steps physically!! Quite worked up already..But there's more to come as I see..So I'm waiting for another breakthru in my dance before this year ends.

Oh..The instructors from the Phillipines are Melvin, JMasta, and Cheska. They're the coolest and funniest ppl I've met last week. Cheska showed me Midnight Sun (I din know she's just as crazy as me over Twilight)

My days of thinking bout nonsense is ending. Practically,a nonsense that slowed me down when I wanted to excel. So, I won't be thinking anything but dance. (ooohhh, I do love locking) Pieces intact while you're gone. Remaining heart that felt nothing but a fiery passion for dance. And don't ever think that you're gonna make me sad or what (no, not you) So, while I'm busy with my stuff I declared...

NO MORE NONSENSE!!

A word that I'll keep to it until I met my Edward.....