Hairdo And My Personal Rainbow Veins

Rainbow hair has always been my toplist~ Even until now.

Whenever I saw LadySeven, another of my dance friend that has amazing colored hair, I'd always  bugged her how it's done (I guess she'd kill me right away if she had a gun, haha). As you know, we asians are born with black or dark brown hair tone, getting a red or turquiose hair would be a head turner as you walk in shopping malls. And as you know, I LOVE TO BE IN A SPOTLIGHT!! (well, a part of it is easier to spot me in a crowd of dark hairs)

I've already done a few colors to my hair and I do have positive feedback from a few dancers!! Teehee~ Love the result but too bad it faded off quite sooner than I expected. So meantime, I'll be purchasing LaRiche Semi Permanent Hair Dyes from Aussie (rather than UK) cause the UK website need me to buy in bulks!!

Current few inspirational pics are listed below. All I can say is HOW COME MALAYSIA DON'T IMPORT THESE DYES!! WHY?!? It's safer, easier, and cheaper!! God..and Malaysian government need to be changed (no further details will be implemented as this is not a political blog).

Although this girl is not having a regular rainbow hair, but a colorful hair is my toplist too!

I've got a shaved side~ So my goal is to become this :

Dramatic and yet cool. Right?

Thinking bout tomorrow makes me go bonkers!! A freestyle based performance, sounds easy? No not yet, the hard part is...I'm gonna cypher for 45 minutes~ While the marathon runners pass by, we (my friend and I) gotta do our job by dancing and cheering for them..Literally. Let's cross fingers as of now I'm not sure if I can actually made it out alive!! Time to pack some crazy towels and clothes~ tata!

This is BlackDiamond

I'm going to take over my abandoned blog. With a new skin.

Voila! It's October 2012~ Before the end of the world strikes..I'm gonna post up the last post!! (if there's end of the world that is~)

But anyway, my life has been going great. I've overcome some few lil hiccups and some big shit ones...if my memories serve me well. Currently, slowly reviving my dead blog...COME ON!! COME ALIVE ALREADY!!!! Freaking dramas all year round. I haven't change much I guess~ Such vanity will be enough to kill me..Writing nonsense as of tmr I'll be rehearsing a show I'm doing with Maple this end of the month~ God, I really hope I can pull myself up along the pole... But I've loss some weight..Which i think is a good choice since it's a healthy loss!! VEGE ALL THE WAYYYYYY!!!

At this moment I'm gonna fall into my lovely purple bed...and dream my crazy yet happy dream. I'll be updating this blog soon. Cause I dont wanna lose my history yet~ Hahaha...Night peeps!!!

Love,
BlackDiamond

Thoughts About My 21st Bday 17-o9-09

Okay, I know this is totally crazy. I haven't been updating my blog since..JULY! Gosh..

Better start more often, since I really do want to keep track of what I'm doing everyday. Hopefully, there won't be any repetitions^^

The main reason of why this out-of-the-blue post is because I wanna celebrate my 21 years of life. With or without this blog, I really wanna express a big appreciation to those tat took time to send smses, to write on my wall, and well..wish me in person. ^^

I do remember the 1st one to wish me on its day is Ah Kang (another of my bday twin), then comes the girls (Doris, Amanda, Silvya and Melissa) the reason why I placed Doris cuz she initiate the rest to sing the song for me. (sweet of her to do tat^^) And well, then Joel just comes and shake my hand (without an pranks! GREAT!) and Ah Dong and Ah Liang later.

And tat happens between 12am-3am (17th Sept o9) I just love how u all remembers and cares enough to wish me^^ And also, the biggest surprise of all time is my dad giving me a call wishing me happy bday.

You know my dad isn't any english educated parents, and he's not the type tat expresses his feeling out so easily. I was at subang studio, and he called me (I tot he wants to know where I'm at) But suddenly he just blurts those magical words ("Happy Birthday ar". In case you're wondering) and after tat my eyes start tearing. I mean, I do love my dad. Just sometimes simple things like these will just make my heart melt. Really it's just once in a blue gray moon. LOL

And the bday present from him is..A MacBook Pro! Haha...Typical of my dad. Oh wells, unknowingly I'll be paying him bak. He loves me too much, and this is what I can do to show my gratitude. ^^ DAD!! I LOVE YOU!! And you're the best...

And God, thank You for giving me such a memorable 21st bday (even though there's no celebrations) The small things tat my friends and You blessed me with..Is something I will never ever forget..

I AM SO FRIGGIN TIRED!!!

Been up since yesterday (monday) 1pm till today(tuesday)..And I'm still up bloggin this nonsense I went thru...This coming sat will be a major performance so still sewing the clothes and everything else..etc..

I wanna complain..Cuz I feel I'm just being stupid for no reason at all. Like when u wanna care for one person and somehow everything doesn't seems to work out right... So frustrated, maybe I'm listening to emo songs (from Jerry's comp) tat's why I'm being so emotional..shut it man!!

Kinda happy cuz at least Tracy (my world's reknown bestie) dropped by at my blog.. Okay, I heard the rest is coming up stairs to the studio. Yea, I know still in the studio..I think I shud go home and rest..

BEST THING bout today is...At night I'm going to get myself a Macbook.. ^^

Dun stop me, I know you want to. I'm going to buy cuz my comp has FINALLY busted, kaput, kua cai!! awww..I missed it...Cuz it's my fav comp to mix songs with. Bye..i gtg..dam tired..and wana kill myself for this suffering to happen to me..

Okay, it's my 1st day of...Ahem. Girls knows it.

In desperate pain..Physically.

Still waiting for my love while getting at it.

Later gonna go training, oh man!

I gonna die..I'm sure of it...

Someone buy me a coffin..I mean morphine(heehe)

Just to ease the pain.

God, thanks for helping me out so many times when I'm dying out on You all the time.

Jesus, You've been the greatest inspiration and strength I've ever need.

Heavenly Father, thanks for watching me when I'm in pain and help me ease the pain while You're at it. It's really an amazing journey for me to seek You everytime everyday and every breath.

I dedicate every single breath for You, my Lord. And I promise You, I'll be the young woman that seeks You heart. And thank You so much for being there for me all the time...Love You Lord.

Where are you, my love?
Is there anything I can do to bring u closer to me?
Like air, I know you're there..But I can't see you..
Like gravity, the force is so strong invincibly loving you..
My dear..I miss you so much.
In times to come, we will be together. I believe it~
And when we're together...My next chapter will begin..

Okay, I'm at the studio. Not practicing any moves cause i wanna online and do some stuff for Silvya~

Current Mood: Very grumpy

Why? 2 reasons that can make a person feel that way is..

Lack of Sleep (rest), and Lack of Food (hungry)..

Mine is the 2nd reason. MAN! I've gained like 2 kg++ and I have to do some broadway dance Amanda came up with. Meaning guys have to (MUST) carry a girl. Hopefully whoever my partner is, he have to be strong~~

I'm kinda worried cause Amanda's GS is good. Her standards are high..Seems like tonite I'll have to do extra training in my room (ahem~)

It's you whom I'm missing these days.
After I decided to walk on this road to my fairy tale.
When will you return to me as God promised?
My smiles gives me away, telling that I'm lonely.
But no fear, as I'm preparing myself better for our future.
I'll love like no other.
And His promise is always true.
I won't go looking for you just yet...
For I know, in His perfect timing..
You'll appear.
And so I'll wait, with every second passing by.
I'll think of you when I start falling into traps.
Please promise me that I'll be your 2nd in your life.
And you'll have to know who's the 1st.
Darling, my sweetheart...I'm so in love with you.
Love that will never ever fade.
Getting more and more impatient as the Lord soothes my soul.
I will be with the Lord, until He sent you to me...

My love, I'll wait for you.
Remember to wait for me as well...
I love you.

Ahh...I've been watching Kingdom Hearts II for quite some time.

I'm getting more and more desperate~

I saw the charm Kairi gave to Sora back Kingdom Hearts. I made one myself before, but then it broke...How sad.

If anyone could possibly make me one (or buy) I would be forever grateful...And I'm serious bout it~

Darn it..!!

My comp is working, but not my internet..Having problems to connect till I nid to use the dial up style. Old skool sia~

Life's pretty eventful this time,
Got performances and shows everywhere..
Till I oso blurr blurr. O.o

And then, I know why I've been enoing the few days liao. It's an experiment for myself to know. Cuz my *ahem* is near and I'll get mood swings. Practically not swings just my mood will be down In The FREAKING VALLEY!!! So down till I got suicidal thoughts, Oh man!

And thus I know, when *ahem* is near. just be happy. *Knocks herself* Reminder.... >.<

And my day sucked....

Woke up realising there's nothing left of me.
The traces I've been looking for is all gone.
And most importantly,
I've completely lost self control.

The very moment I stand here in the midst of this busy world, I thought,"Wouldn't it be a nice thing if I just fade away...Like how I used to?"

My life flashes images of beauty and awe as I decide to fly with the wind. Not caring what the world will think of me. It's just me...

The weight of the world is heavy upon my weak shoulders. And I'll always know, You're always there to carry me. Be ready to pick me up as I fall. Crying as I beg of You to have mercy upon my wrongdoings. I saw You sitting there, bright and pure as You should be. And then...

Reality

It hit me so hard, and I have no place to hide. I have nothing to make You happy. I'm just noone... But You choose to die for a nobody like me. Why? Lying naked on the floor, You came carrying the best linen in the world to cover me. I choked, "Why are You doing this?"

Because I Love You

And soon I know the hit from reality, is to bring me back to Your side forever. Not leaving anymore.

Tell you what..I don't know what u've said..But Whatever U've said is still hurting..

Know why? I saw something I shudn't seen... I sometimes really wish u din say those words at all. But U alone said it...Wat words? U shud know it by urself....

Alrites..Since I've got some time in hand I'll freaking update my blog.


Life's good.The End.

Nah..It wasn't. Just broke up with my current bf, going thru some heartaches. I'm stupid! That's all I realized. Not only that, I'm addicted to Night World Series, which describes love story in a very different way. While I don't have anyone to love..WRONG AGAIN! I have my friends, and parents and whoever that's nice to me. I can love them. Yea I could and I would.

The latest story I've finished yesterday night was the love between Galen and Keller. I mean Keller's character and personality attracts me so much and I feel like I wanna be like her. She loves Galen, but there's an important mission awaiting her to complete it. SO..She hides all her feelings and yet be caring enough to care for others. Until she completed what needs to be done THEN..POOF..She and the guy was together forever. I mean, it's reeallly cool to even think like that. Complete my life's goals. Then tot bout love stuff..

I'll always know I'm not alone. Either I have God with me all the time, and friends who are super duper caring. Blessed I guess...

Mood: Not Up Not Down, Just In Between

And uh..Yea this coming Friday which is the 8th of May. I'll be performing again together with the rest in Taylor's College. They have this event called the Taylor's Got Talent thingy.. Well, I wish all the contestants all the best!!

BTW, I have a really big biG BIG Wanted LIST!

1st. Calvin and Hobbes Comics!! (They're so funny together)
2nd. Night World Last Series- Strange Fate (Can't wait to see what happens next)
3rd. The Vampire Diaries- The Return: Nightfall (Didn't know the author will come up this one)

And the list goes on and on. (not hinting anything)

Ah..As you can see, if I'm not dancing or watching dance videos. I'll be reading tons of books. Which I'm glad I did, rather than hunting new bfs..Gosh, that scared me a lil. Yeap I'm like tat..Supposedly to move on to my next target..But it has to stop.

No one bothers to explain.

All the pain the tears I've cried. Still You never said "goodbye".

I wished that I'll see my reflection through your eyes.

Its all for nothing..

My past is hateful, it's horrible of what I did. I don't like it.

Btw...Life has got a new look to me. I still working in CBTL which is cool, getting extra pocket munny for myself. And yeap, teaching tuition to my korean neighbours. And oso..teaching dance in UGDN. Well, I never been so eventful in my life b4.(My friggin 1st time)

So long din blog. Forgot what I was supposed to write. Not looking forward to anything (especially ppl who still read my darn blog). U guys have no life!! Get a grip man..Get a job, it's fun to meet diff ppl everyday. I've not grown, especially in those areas (hmm..) but in my life oni.

Ah..Addicted to songs like A Little Not Too Over You, Mad and Thinking Of You. No intentional meanings, but just some nice songs I like to dance and get emotional with. Yes, I'm still the emo punk or whatever U think I am...Just so beat up my life. It's tiring, torturing and bitter. I got skinnier again. I like it..Someone told me so..lallalalalalalal....Im not telling what I have and what I got. U find it out urself..Btw, I changed my phone so all ya contacts are gone!!! Send me Sms and tell me who you are so I can save ur numbers up okie?(To Those Who Have My Numbers)

Officially my blog is now dead~~ For like...4 months ++ ahahha... Been busy with life..Will update soon when I'm free..

LiKE I WILL!!! NO WAY!!!

Soon....(in 1000 years)..

Hey!! This wasn't fair... I thought I told myself that I'll be the emo one the rest of my life. Seems like it's the other way round.. O.o

Well, my job from CBTL is super fun. I love making coffees and teas. I love tea latte, maybe u guys shud order Double Vanilla Ceylon Tea Latte. Why? Cause to those who loves milky and vanilla-ish tastes are perfect to fit this blend. hehhee.. (like advertising wei~)

Imagine drinking coffee everyday when u work. Well..Not such a big deal. But it's hurting my health leh!! I don't mind actually (life is short in fact) so I rather live it to the fullest!! Kinda tried almost everything in CBTL. I still like the tea latte (replaced the once my all-time-fav, Caramel Machiatto) 

Had like 3 days of training. Feel so proud of myself. Got to meet new people, and well working with them is the best part. I'm still as usual. ONCE I gotten the pics taken together with the training I'll post it. (FREAKO!! I've been saying that since..??) Ah, what to say? Although my life is busy and tiring. At least I know I had my fun and I live it without wasting one sec!! So worth it man!!

My schedule is working in the morn (8.30-4.30) then dance. Till 1am!! HAHHA. I know I know...TRUST ME I KNOW!! It's dangerous rite? I'm getting my car back.I promise I'll be home early-ER~ Hope so. Dun trust me, I always like to lie bout all these stuffs. Haha! Not funny. I love to spend my time every minute and every sec into something I like. (FOR INSTANCE) I'd like to stay beside the one I like most of the time. Or i like hanging out with friends... NONSENSE~ I'm crapping already... SHUT UP!!!

Needa good night sleep tmr's a long day again~

Okay...Officially I'm half doomed..

1st.. I'm really down-to-the-core anxious of my new job coming this sat.
2nd.. I have no idea what am I doing at this time (except for the dance
part)..
3rd.. I'm freaking myself out for no reason...at all.

Well, I'd like to apologise to Jac (ma lil sis) cuz..I threw my temper at her for some private reason. I don't like mentioning my reasons why I'm angry, maybe cuz it's somehow inapropriate. Or simply I just like to keep things to myself now.

I'm extremely glad that the Tuesday performance came out nearly perfect (I'd like to say that myself) Although I did (not to mention others did) some mistakes. As long as I'm offering all the praises..seriously ALL THE PRAISES AND GLORY to Him. The ultimate Guy that I'm trying hard to please most of the time. I know I'm not perfect, and by His grace I'm still standing tall today. And thank Jesus that God actually lent His Hand to help me out this few weeks.

I thoroughly grateful..Of what's happening in my life. As though the dream that I dreamt of every night coming true right before my eyes. It's so surreal..Yet it's so life..

Oh right..I suppose that I need to upload my photos oof my recent doings. FYI, my cam has gone out of battery.. And I'll recharge it soon enough (HOPEFULLY XD). I try to get the pictures posted.

And to others who'd like to drop by my blog every once in a while. I'd liek to say a big hank you for at least cring enough to know whetehr I'm still alive. hahhahaa, no joke. Ermm..Just telling you peeps that I'll start my work this sat (10am-5pm). Working 6 days a week and well, hopefully I can cope (which I don't think I can at all) Just pray with me, will ya? and If anyone's planning an outing anytime soon pls do tell me a week earlier. Usually after my work I'll go to UGDN to train my dance and stuffs. Yea..Busy all over again.

Any updates pls do tell me aight? I'd love to go shopping anytime soon. Right after my work or one of my holidays...XD Miss you peeps so much~

A busy life...

Day No. 7846290 - Yvanna's exhausted. Basically, she's excited also. What to say? When someone has found their dreams coming true slowly step by step, they're actually too passionate to even think that they're tired. If they are doing what they like most.

Ah shut up~

Well, my busy life has lead me to an extreme diet. Meaning I'm already loss my weight (sometimes I do wonder if it's a good thing, since ppl always say I'm meaty) I'm 55kg before I join UGDN. And it has been that way ever since. But now...I'm 49kg..A freaking 6kg loss, in a week!! That's a lot..Maybe it's the sweat. For example, imagine me sweat a bowl of sweat every single day. Hmm..Not elaborate enough. Imagine..People pouring water on me..

Oh yeah...Tat's a lot.. heheh..Really and seriously, I got witnesses. Cause a singlet for me is not enough to soak up my sweat everytime I train. Tat's really crazy man. That's my theory of why I lost weight so fast in a week.

Okay, let's talk bout more personal things, like...hmm..I wonder what. Not much going on in my relationship life ever since my emo period went off completely from my blog posts. Well, noone seems to have any interests in me anymore. Maybe I should post up like !SINGLE GIRL FOR SALE! poster or advertisement. I don't care much anyways.

If I do, I wonder how much I do costs...Suggestions anyone?

Another happy thing came across to me this week. Like my mom buying an IPod Classic 120GB Black Version for me!! HAHAHA... I mean, that's really helping my dance so far. Well, all I know to repay her is to make her proud of me of my dance and..etc etc.. The main thing is to do at least a shining thing from this dance...

Oh, before I forget, the main person who helped upload the songs inside. LIKE FREAKING 5k++ songs!! How on earth man~ Somemore helped me to put japanese speaking videos inside (how sweet of him) and oso LOCKING VIDEOS!!! So freaking nice man..haha...I dont want mention names. Cause you know it's you (I know U read my blog..So it's U!!) Thanks a lot and big big hug (if u nid it) ^^

Alrites..I'm performing in Seremban next Tues. Can't believe it again. This week it's fun and rough and everything in between. I hope you guys enjoy this as much as I do from typing all this funny nonsense. Next time then~