I find myself standing on this place

Where everything around me is static, unmoving..

Am I in a dream?

A dream tat I'll wake finding myelf in a world where God places me?

Is this real?

All I know is my feelings for u will never fade

My mind is full of ur image before u left me...

Miss u so much

Tat I cant find any words to let u stay any longer..

I think I've used up wat I need to use up to impress u..

This is who I am...

I'm a girl..

An ordinary girl tat dun deserve anyone to love..

An ordinary girl tat noone will ever turn their head to even look at..

A girl tat can't hold what she treasures the most...

She dun have any courage..

She's naive..She likes to enjoy the moment she's living in..

She dun care what's in the future..

She's simple to impress yet complicated to understand..

She's impatient...She likes to be entertained..

She's lonely, but yet she's got close frens..

She's rare, but somehow most girls are like her...

She's me..

Sometimes I dun even know who I am anymore..

Confused when there's noone to tok to..

Will u accept me as I am?

Or u'll just ignore me like the rest?

Will u be the special one I'm looking forward to?

Will u be mine to treasure?

Will u care for me?

Even if u dun

I still got one person I can go to..

My Jesus will be there for me..

When I'm lonely..

When I need someone to tok to..

Jesus..I'm still a sinner..

Thank You for not ignoring me..

And thanks for saving me..

P/S: Currently listening to Say(all I need) by One Republic..(they're awesome man!!)

Rumours have me captured in amazement..Saying tat I'm already coupled~ hmmm..IS TAT TRUE?

Fact 1. Yes, im in love with my dear..but tat doesnt mean im in a relationship..
Fact 2. Eventhough im in a relationship i dun nid to tell the whole world
bout it..
Fact 3. I like to kip things private now..FOR NOW!!
Fact 4. Yes, sometimes im despressed when i miss someone badly..(Dun tell me u havent see girls EMO b4)
Fact 5. Dun try telling things (bout me) tat u not even sure of to other
ppl (Hate this man!)
Fact 6. Rumors kills..Oh well, since im being treated like one of the celeb..I dun mind tat anyway..NID SOME paparazzis then..*oh stop
flashing*
Fact 7. I being stupid rite now..As u read on some nonsense actually pops up!
Fact 8. Tots going thru my head now...*memories flashing b4 me* IM GONNA DIE!! of boredom..
Fact 9. Many people thinks bout whether IM COUPLED OR NOT when they read Fact1,2&3..
Fact 10. I've completed 10 facts bout myself for now..All I nid now is..U to do one when u're totally bored
like me..And yea..Have Fun..

As u can see, im bored..Dunno what to post bout anymore. Thanks to my frens i've came up with brilliant ideas to entertain myself..

My 40th post..After I finished teaching my freestyle class in Kota Damansara..

The class overall is good, there's like 3 girls who knew how to dance before. They're quite good at it too, the styles still not there yet..I bet I gonna teach the class some techniques next week..

I'm missing U like crazy..Havent been toking for like 3 days!! U know how much I wish u're here with me?! At least, a 'hello' or 'bye' would be enuf...Darling, pls tok to me..I'm getting weaker in love by the moment. Feels like I hit the ground and everything's getting clear. Reality keep on hitting on me, feel as though I'm not ur girl anymore... I HATE this feeling, can u pls make it go away?

Well, I'm missing him more and more even when I'm typing this..HATE THIS MAN!!! Someone pls save me by just tagging me. At least I'm occupied with stupid tots in my head...

Marie Digby's

Say It Again

The thing about love

Is I NEVER saw it coming

It kinda ~crept up~ and took me by !!surprise!!

And now there’s a voice inside my heart that’s got me wondering

Is this true, I want to hear it one more time

Move in a little closer

Take it to a whisper

Just a little louder

Say it again for me

Cuz I LOVE the way
it feels when you are telling me that I’m

The only one who blows your
mind

Say it again for me

It’s like the whole world stops to listen

When you tell me you’re in love

Thing about you is you know just how to
get me

You talk about us like there’s no end in sight

The thing about me is that I really want to let you

Open that door and walk into my life

And it feels like it’s the first time

That anybody's ever brought the sun without the rain

And NEVER in my whole life

Have I heard words as beautiful as when you say my name

Eekk...

I HAVE FINISHED MY DANCE EXAM!!! FINALLY...long hours of waiting (seems like forever though)..I'll tell the whole story out...

4.00am - Jac's practicing her dance steps in her room...
- Wat's it gonna do with me? Cuz I'm sleeping in her room and thus, I din get a good sleep b4 the exam.. >.<

9.00am - My sis (Jac Tan) woke me up..Which is late..Supposedly to be awake by 8.30am

10.00am - DISASTER!!Can't find my pants I've planned to wear in the exam!!

10.30am - Improvised my costume..changed it to yellow singlet and black jazz pant with yellow stripes..Supposedly to be nicer jazz pants with half top showing my abs (I dun have one) so yea...

10.40am - Wanted to drive to dance school and found out my pant's is in the car..ZZZ..big joke...

11.00am - Reached dance school..Went and support my frens who're taking the exam oso...

1.00pm - The time slots delayed so much and we're way bak time for wat we've planned..Mine's even worse...My exam starts at 3.20pm supposed to be finishing my GOLD level dance exam adi ler...

2.00pm - My frens all finished their 2 level exam (SILVER and GOLD) which is vry good..And they're following the plan so they abandoned me in the school and went home prepare themselves fo later..

3.20pm - My 1st SILVER level exam... Waited it for few hours FULL of nervousness...I wanna die!! SUPER crazy time...Miss my sweet heart suddenly..So i flipped my phone and see his pic..hehe (RANDOM!!)

4.00pm - Finished my GOLD level!! Finally... Drove straight to Jacq's hse..Prepare myself for the party for Eunice and Bernice...

7.00pm - Went bak to my hse and switch car..then go to Izzi with my mom (Together with my frens la)

7.30pm till 12.40am - Party like a wild girl..For once I battle with Sam Oh and won..He cant tahan the sexiness (I think)...LOL!!! Dance like crazy la cuz finished off my dance exam so nothing to lose anymore...

Now - Blogging the events today and looking at my frens fighting each other...And they're staying over in my hse...GREAT!! I gonna miss my night's sweet dream...

Decided to post a simple and easy one b4 I vsit my dreamland..Hehe..Hope u wouldn't mind reading some nonsense of my life so far~

Blog:You're totally crazy Lyd! You know the dance exam's in a
few hours and you're still blogging?!

Lyd:Yea..I know..I'm really crazy..Cuz I need to release some
stress out...

Blog:Don't release it out on me..Ppl's reading me..Can't U
see??

Lyd:Well, to tell U the truth..I can't see who really reading u
(my blog) Cuz simply I'm not U!!

Blog: You're hopeless..*smacks itself against a wall*

Lyd: Everyone's been tellin me tat..I know..

Blog: *unlocking the door*

Lyd: Dun go just yet..I STILL need U to release my stress...

*Blog runs out the door*

Lyd: Hey! I said DONT GO!! Come back u..*chases after
Blog*

And so...I caught my Blog..And I forced it to post this up..And
the conversation above..Yea..I'm cool..Maybe I shud sleep now..YUP I SHUD!!
Nites all!!

A day out with my didis (WaiHon and ChunHong), Tracydear and my sis (Jac)..

The guys are so shy at camwhoring but at last...

The results of getting familiar with the camera..

A bond with the cam thus born!

2 NEW CAMWHORES!

Btw, They're really good at it..especially ChunHong..Not WaiHon though..

He's still shy at tat moment..
Later on~ Not anyMore!

Trying to be Cool..But tak jadi~

Pose 1, pose 2, pose 3, pose 4...

Trying to see wat time? Maybe not!

We're not helping each other!

At last, it's me again! Saying good luck to those going to National Service.

Requested from Tracydear...Pls say thx cause it's really hard for me t go upstairs to get the cam..Since my room now is messed up by some construction man who're trying to fix the dem aircond!! The fan sux cause it makes a lot of noise and yea, I'm sleeping with my sis tonite!

The girls tat planned up the outing and (not really) suprised her in this dinner..

It was fun..I should be inside..But well..My cam, mine to take the pics..

The best is yet to come..

The fresh mussels simmered in white wine and some herbs..

Owh..So heavenly as it goes into ur mouth...

We took a lot of pics for the food..
Dun ask why...It's kinda funny..

Because they're the ones got to travel in our stomach..
Some memories of them before they changed to something else..

This is the one and oni angelhair pasta i liked to eat in Italliannies..

They really placed a nice name to tat thin pasta..

Trust me...I'm getting hungry as I post this up.. (LoL)

The Risotto is really nice!! Btw, this is seafood risotto..

There it is!! The bday girl and her present frm MichO and Tracy..
Really pretty rite? I mean the girl..*nodding in agreement*

I just realised my blog's time is totally out!! Omg.. No wonder all my timings are running around all crazed up! >.<

In the days I missed you
In the nite I dreamt of you
Tell me, am I
obsessed bout you?

Dear Jesus,
I truly thank You for all tat you've done in my life. I realied as what
You've placed in the future is slowly revealing itself like petals of flowers blooming right before me. I do pray whatever's in the future will be fruitful for what I'm
doing now. Amen. ^^

So, like you can see the time when I'm posting this. OUTRAGEOUS!! I'm crazy for not being in my dreamland at this time *slaps herself on the forehead* I gotta go then..See you people really soon.

P/S: I promise the pics will be out in the next post..Dun be angry aight?

A Change In Return

A change of template for me means a change in my character.
As you can see, no matter how "man" I wanna be..I just can't..
And love can make a girl girl..More feminine I guess..

Well, the one who change me to a more feminine side is..Love
I can say it's my dream finally came true.
To be a girl at least..
Although I still can't write beautiful poems to describe the wonderful feeling I'm having now..
Might as well be transparent to the ones reading this..

No:
I wont reveal who my boy is...
I'm not telling whether I'm in a
relationship (so you all can make a blind guess)
I am not lying

Yes:
I'm in love..
I really like my boy for a long long time..
I'm kinda
cheating on Josh..(not to reveal the full name)
I'm really sorry to say I've
broken up with him..
I regreted telling Josh I wanna couple while trying to
forget my boy..

The reason why I really regreted is I dont have enuf courage to tell my boy how much I like him..Which is, in this case, saddenning..
Because I knew if I have told..I wouldn't hurt other ppl's feelings..

Sorry:
Josh, for making ur life so hard, but thanks for all the care u gave
thru this one year..
My friends, for making u all worry bout me, and using
up ur brain juices to think bout my probs.. And oso finally..God, for not
talking to You for really long..But I did tok to You (well, I think You're the
Only One who knows everything now)

Still, life isn't so hard to live with when you're with ur friends..
1st post in this new skin..

Missing You Badly

My goodness...Look at the time and I'm still thinking bout you..

Look at my face I'm still in love with you..

Wonder whether what I said will affect you..

If it does then I know you feel the same way too..

Missing you badly ever since you're gone..

Hoping you're still doing fine wherever you are..

I'm not the type of girl tat types mushy thingss..

Not the type tat expose the real me in front of ppl...

But since you're special I'll do it...

I really dun wan you to go..

But still I cant make you stay..

You're not beside me now..

Noone embraces me like you do..

Misiing you like crazy now..

Dreamt of you..

Waiting for you to come bak...

Cuz simply my feelings for you is still here...

Few Apologies and Emotional Moments

By now, I can see my bestie (Tracydear) screaming towards me wanting some photos tat I took from Jacq's birthday...

May is the busiest month celebrating different people's birthdays and preparing for my dance exams...

Great..The exam's in a week's time and I'm here typing bout some nonsense and blogging...

Wishing tat some frens of MINE would actully forgive me for taking tat long to post up her photos...

I won't post it up on this post...I'm so sorry..REALLY MEAN IT!!

Need a few moments to release my stressful dance steps and personal reasons to EMO a while...

To recall..

Tmr's the day which one of my fren is going to somewhere to study..

gonna miss him like crazy...

I won't tell you who yet... BTW, he's a sweet heart...haha...

Ah well..He'll be gone going in a few hours...

Counting down the minutes and seconds..So hard to let it all go...

But well..

There's something in this world which a brilliant guy invented..

I neglected the convenience ever since i got it...

But now I KNEW THE IMPORTANCE!!!

PHONE..or maybe MSN (IM)

Oh..how i thank God for placing me in this century...

The days waiting for you to come back is LONGER than the days living not knowing who you are to me..

Boy..How I gonna miss you when you're gone...

I wished I had the courage to tell you my feelings earlier..

At least we still have time together...

But yet, everything's moving so fast..

And you're going into your future and me into mine...

Hoping tat our path in this future will link side by side...

Cuz i wanna spend my days with you..

A Happy Day To Remember..And You Know Why

A day to remember..

Let's consider today to be my best happiest day..

Everything happenned so unexpectedly..

Tat's when you took my breath away..

It's so captivating tat I kept on reminding myself

It wasn't a dream...

Because you made it true and real..

It can do such things to me tat I can't even imagine..

It melt my heart..

Tingle my emotions...

And it made me smile the whole day without realising

I'm doing tat..

Tat's how you take it from here...